Tuesday, October 20, 2009

OUCH..dis wat i've found..goodness..bt who am i to complain?? im born lidat..n dere are ppl worse off den mi..i wan to correct de error..bt i hate rehab..everytym i book an appt, i go for de first consultation..hear wat de doc says, go for xray..see result..n den hear de damn old same story over n over agn..as de yrs go by, de story dun change, bt de injuries n probs down mi leg gts worst..

no hard core sport..do mur swimmin BT onli freestyle..do until ur limit, den stop..de mur u push urself, de worse it wil gt..QUIT floorball, u cant hv huge/high impact activities to ur ankle n knees..WAT, u quit floorball den join adventure club..STILL run n climb n blah blah blah..de list goes on n on..i wan to do wat i lik..i wan to do wat others cn do..

i noe de doc meant well..bt i cant stop..in a cca, if u cant do it..u're lik a loser, outcast..shame on u man..y others cn do it bt nt u?? y others wif injuries cn do it bt nt u?? sumhw, i wonder if all OUR injuries n probs are de same..sumhw, i wonder if seniors/officers/trainers take into account SERIOUSLI, de injuries n probs of deir members..N nt ALWAYS JUS PUSH DEM TO DEIR LIMITS!! hwever, i noe deir 'ku zhong'..cos sum ppl jus lik to fake pain, fake injury..F***..i hope dey reali gt injured one day n gt REAL PAIN..

whu WANTS to change legs wif mi?? i stil wana trek n see de world..i stil wana go for trips ard de world backpackin..i stil hv lots of things i wana do n nid mi legs to carry mi..bt y?? y am i born wif all dis probs?? i hate it..bt nobodi is perfect..ive yet to cum accross anbodi whu has so much leg injuries lik mi..either dey hv dis..or dey hv dat..dey dun gt all dat i hv..lifes nt fair..

flat feet bilaterali (wear insoles wif shoes)..weak ligaments at de ankle (ligamentous laxity, or "looseness of the ligaments," softening of the ligaments holding the bones together)..tight muscles at de calf (to compensate for de weak ligaments)..rotatedli in wards hip..blah blah blah..watever!! as long as i stil cn tahan n do things which i lik..i wil try to do, to de best of mi abilities..love PAINKILLERS..=)

mi left groin hurts..i tink de muscle gt pulled?? i cant open mi legs TOO wide..slight movement i feel pain..bt its nt as bad as de right knee..hwever, whn i slp, i cant open to wide to squeeze mi bolster..=(
dis de knee..oh wells..de lateral ligament is makin mi pain..i cant go up or down stairs properli..it hurts lik shit everytym i move up or down..even whn im takin off mi SHORTS n wearin dem!! sucks big tym..i hv to lik bend sooooo low jus to wear mi undies n shorts..if nt, whn im on de bed, i take dem off fm dere..so much easier..
iliotibial band syndrome (IT band friction syndrome) - common cos of knee pain along de outside knee n lower thigh. dis IT band is a strong thick band of fibrous tissue dat runs along de outside of de leg. starts at de hip all de way to outer thigh n attaches on de outside edge of de shin bone (tibia) jus below de knee joint. dis IT band works wif de quadriceps to provide stability to de outside of de knee joint durin movement..

IT band syndrome is typicali caused by inflamation of de IT band. it is a common injury in runners or other athletes dat run for trainin or durin deir sports. IT band acts primarily as a stabilizer durin runnin n may becum irritated fm overuse. de pain is typicali felt on de outside
aspect of de knee or lower thigh. often mur intense whn descendin stairs or gettin up fm a seated position..

IT band syndrome is common in runners who perform unbalanced, repetitive exercise such as runnin onli on one side of a crowned road, or onli runnin one way around a track. Most roads slope off to the sides n runnin along de edge causes to de outside foot to be lower den de inside foot. dis in turn causes de pelvis to tilt to one side n stresses de IT band..

chondromalacia patellae (CMP) results fm damage to de cartilage which covers de posterior aspect of de patella (knee cap). dis is known as articular cartilage n acts to allow smooth movement n shock absorbtion between de patella n de groove thru which it runs. in overuse cases, de cause of de damage is usuali repetitive rubbin of part of de cartilage against de underlying bone..

individuals wif CMP, de knee cap rubs against de part of de joint behind it, resultin in inflammation, degeneration n pain. de can be for a number of reasons, bt is usuali due to de position of de patella itself. de most common feature of CMP is patella mal-trackin. de patella most commonli runs too lateralli (to the outside) in de groove. dis prob is most regularli caused by muscle imbalances, whr de lateral quadriceps muscles n other tissues such as de retinaculum are too tight n de vastus medialis oblique muscle is weak..

CMP is common in young athletes who are often otherwise injury free. its incidence is also highest in females due to their on average higher 'Q angle'..
tdy mornin, i had to leave hse earlier..as mi leg is stil gifin prob..i cant walk as fast as before, i cant run to catch de bus..duno y, mi left ankle starts to hurt..i gues its becos of de cats..haha..dey frighten mi earli in de mornin..lucki i din scream..
all de pain runnin thru mi legs..its nt as painful as de hurt n loneliness i feel goin thru mi body, mind, soul, blood, heart..nothin is worse as compared to de coldness..tym seem to stop..as de blood rushes thru mi, im wonderin y am i still livin..i wish for de blood to turn blue..

im letargic..bt im energetic..i wan to stay hm n rest, n nt move ard..i wan to hide n shun away fm de crowd n noises..bt i wana kip movin to forgt everythin..i wana do mani mani things to kip mi busy n nt tinkin abt stuff i dun lik..

i goin off..bie..dun bother lookin for mi..u cant gt mi..i wil reach for u, whn i hv to, whn im in nid..

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