..if i love u, u will die..if u love me, u will die..: February 2010

Sunday, February 28, 2010

charlene loves holiday..

charlene loves to slp..

charlene loves to eat..

charlene loves to play..

charlene loves herself..

charlene loves her fatty bombom..

charlene loves him..

Saturday, February 27, 2010

charlene is a hapi gal..=)

ive gt wat i wanted..i dun nid other things le..

cant be bothered wif u..y shud i be angri..i shud jus laugh it off..

gt mittin ltr..haiz..

steppin out of mi 'shell'?? watever..haha..

i noe wat u wan..i noe wat u hope n wish for..i noe wat u tink..

rmbr i told u dun force mi..=) we shall wait n see..hahahaha..

be gud to mi lor..den i shall do things dat u lik..hehe..

Friday, February 26, 2010

finali exams over..jus wana pass it n gt out..

wan to start mi next chapter in life le..

hate ppl whu fly mi kite..seriousli WTF!!

damn it..an eye for an eye..bt haiz..wat cn i do..

aint i suppose to forgive n forget, give n take..

hopfuli dose wif RELIGION bear dat in mind..no nid mi to remin u!!

wan to clear things up, bt i tink de hard tyms is goin to be over soon..hope everythin will go on smoothli..cos i cant let go..

Tuesday, February 23, 2010

1 paper down..2 more to go..

CF is OMG..lucki gt siti as secretary..lucki we are babis together since sec 1..tks babe..

as such, i will hlp u out for fac..though i am so pissed wif ahben!! haiz..

n yeah, im gona be a camp instructor soon..=) cant wait to start..hehe..den gt money too..

cant wait for feb to end..hope mar will be a gud month..

i lub u..i still do..n i always will..

Saturday, February 20, 2010

am so hungri..bt den its ok..eat or nt no difference..whu cares aniway, meib mi own stomach cn become smaller?? haha..

i say 10 lines, u say 1 line..do u even noe hw to READ mi msg?? do u even noe hw to REPLY mi msg?? do u even noe hw de FEELING is??

all u do is hv ur own fun..n nt care abt others..
all u do is gif mi false hope..n pretend nothin hpnd..
all u do is nt answer mi n let mi continue talkin n assumin wat i see, hear, think..
all u do is ur own way..n nt even ask hw i feel abt it..

y are u lidat?? isit u or mi dat change??

u are sensitive to wat ppl say to u, say abt u..BUT are u sensitive to others ard u?? esp ur loved ones?? god noes if im stil in dat category..fcuk..

IT IS BETTER TO KNOW AND GET SAD, ANGRY, DISAPPOINTED..RATHER THAN NOT KNOW AND KEEP WONDERING..

Everythin seem to be goin away..

Lifes a bitch..

Ppl shudnt hv ani emotion or feelings at all, dat will be so gud..

We shud nt hv ani strings attached..

Can I onli care n bother abt miselfn nt others??

I love u, bt do u even love mi..

Hi

de past 2 days were jus lik a dream..everythin pass so fast, dat 1 single wrong move i make or talk, will change everythin..

i dun lik it..stop playin mi out..

sumtyms u treat mi so gud, i dun even believe it..n i wish dat it wun end..

on de other hand, at tyms u hv dis wall n barrier, dat i cant even pass thru..i dun even understand wat u are tinkin at tyms..

i reali duno wat to do..duno wat to tink..duno wat to feel..duno wat to say..

sumthin so small, sumthin dat i lik to do..sumthin dat im playful of, sumthin dat i wan to disturb u abt..n all i gt is ur angri loud boomin voice..

y cn u do wat u lik bt i cant? dun i deserve a chance lik u to be young, to be playful, noisy, wild, etc..

i wan to be back lik mi old self, bt its jus so hard to look at ppl's face n listen to dem against mi own will at tyms..i wan mi rights too..

i wan to be loved too..i wan to feel cherished too..i wan to be happy too..i wan to lead de life i lik to..i wan to be pampered too..

bt y is everythin so hard, so difficult to achieve..everythin is lik right before mi eyes, standin infrontof mi..bt i cant seem to grasp it..i cant catch hold of it..i cant gt into de cold place whr u hv shut urself in..

Thursday, February 18, 2010

charlene is veri hapi for de past 2 days..

thank u so mani much..muack..=)

gud break fm all de dumb studyin..

lets clear it once n for all..

n CAMPS!! here i come..EARN MONEY TIME..whee..=)

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

forget to write abt mi frog..=)

finali got to eat it at geylang..=) if nt at bugis oso cn..

sumtyms, dreamin is also gud for de brain..=)

i cnt hlp bt feel loved..n its a gud thing rite?? haha..

studied de first 5 lctures of HBO le..goodness..total madness man..still gt 1 and 1/2 more weeks..mus chiong all de way..

im veri stressed up..im bein taught to gif n take, bt dats wat others are taught too..YET y dun dey DO IT, BT i MUST DO IT?? aint fair at all..

i hv to swallow down mi pride, mi voices down..i wan to voice out, wan to show mi discomfort, disagree, stick to de routine..bt i jus cant, nothin seem to come out..im lik being forced to kip quiet, forced to stay silent, forced to listen n obey wifout ani questions..

y are we goin back to de old era..whr de ladies or young ones hv to listen to de males, de elders, de parents, etc..isit singapore a democratic country, whr ppl cn feel free to voice out opinions, unhappiness, love, care, anger, crazyiness??

to dem, it wun matter, for i hv to change..mi n miself mus change for de benefit of others..bt dey dun hv to change..dey CANT even TRY to change for mi..y isit lidat?? isit it gud to change for de beta?? bt wat if i change n i become different? will it hlp?? will it work??

im seriousli worked up, jus for no reason..nt dat dey care aniway..dey cant even be bothered if im alive or dead..dey wun even noe cos dey dun even msg or call or say something..so wat for i care, wat for i bother rite..sice everythin revolve ard dem, so be it..i jus do mi things n dats it..jus dun step on mi tail..

everythin dun seem to be in place..it looks lik ive lost mi chance, mi status, mi home, mi comfort, mi signs, miself..everythinis in a mess rite nw..i dun even noe if wat i see, i hear, i feel, i taste, i smell, i suspect, i realise, i know is TRUE or FALSE..

who must change? ME who's fault? ME who's problem? ME who must listen? ME who must keep quiet? ME who must eat? ME who must follow? ME who must try? ME who must accomodate? ME who must help out? ME who must care? ME fucklah, everything oso ME..

Sunday, February 14, 2010

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR..cant wait to gt mi CNY red packets..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY..to all de lovers out dere..cherish ur loved one..

cant believe 1 yr pass so fast jus liat..wat damn luck..last yr n dis yr all so shitty..y is history seem to be lik repeatin itself..i hate it..

im so lost..i duno wat to do..i feel out of place..i wan to gt bck to whr i belong..

i cant stop tinkin..i cant concentrate..exams are round de corner, rite after cny..whr gt mood..

i feel so useless..i nida supress mi feeling within miself n nt show it out..i nida control hw i feel n reflect..i nida cri alone whr nobodi cn see n lecture mi..i nid sumbodi for mi to learn on n brin mi to greater heights..

will sumbodi pls step forward to care n concern abt mi..im weak rite now..so weak..

Monday, February 8, 2010

finali entrep is OVER..

nw is war wif ccrm, ptfl, hbo..

bt i noe i cn do it..cos mi ptfl grp n hbo grp members are BEST..all de way peeps..hwever, i mus put in more effort for ccrm..haiz..

aniway, super duper pissed durin de week towards entrep..bt hell lah..u say ppl, bt actuali u sayin urself..y gif all de talks n msgs n msns..y nt jus do de thing n show thru action?? GOODNESS!! y mus i be s kapo to stay up late n find de legos n do de stuff!! ARGH!!

i wash car tdy..haha..=) so fun jus wif him washin n playin..bt its mi first tym, i mus learn more..i mus do beta..i wan to hv fun wif him as long as i cn, even if is jus washin car..hehe..=)

mi n mi big mouth, go tell i gt no lessons, end up mus do errand..wahaha..

Monday, February 1, 2010

..HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOIBOI..

..if i love u, u will die..if u love me, u will die..