..if i love u, u will die..if u love me, u will die..

Monday, February 8, 2010

finali entrep is OVER..

nw is war wif ccrm, ptfl, hbo..

bt i noe i cn do it..cos mi ptfl grp n hbo grp members are BEST..all de way peeps..hwever, i mus put in more effort for ccrm..haiz..

aniway, super duper pissed durin de week towards entrep..bt hell lah..u say ppl, bt actuali u sayin urself..y gif all de talks n msgs n msns..y nt jus do de thing n show thru action?? GOODNESS!! y mus i be s kapo to stay up late n find de legos n do de stuff!! ARGH!!

i wash car tdy..haha..=) so fun jus wif him washin n playin..bt its mi first tym, i mus learn more..i mus do beta..i wan to hv fun wif him as long as i cn, even if is jus washin car..hehe..=)

mi n mi big mouth, go tell i gt no lessons, end up mus do errand..wahaha..

Monday, February 1, 2010

..HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOIBOI..

Sunday, January 31, 2010

im damn freakin hungri..hv bin on a partial hunger strike..

sat: drink green tea all de way till diner at 6plus..den eat 3 sushi, eat white carrot cake..till 8 plus, den drink 2 yakult befor starting de nite cycling..along de way, drink water, mouthful of coffee n h2o..finali ric ecp mac, ate bits n pieces of biscuits n finish mi green tea..

sun: came hm, pompom, slp, wash dirty clothes, etc..den wake up, nothin to eat, din even go out, ate mam's sweet potato soup, bt mus share wif whole famili..

nw damn HUNGRI!! roar..sian, hw long cn i last?? i see food, bt i dun feel like eatin..i cn cook, bt i feel so lazy..i wan to eat, bt gt no appetite..

IM SO FAT!! IM SO SAD! IM SO BAD!! IM SO FAD!! ARGH!!

ive cleared all de doubts, all de probs, all de issued..ive died, ive recharged, ive awaken fm dead..

I LOVE MI PARENTS?? haha..mam finali paid for didi's shoes dat ive paid bt din ask her for de money..since she ask mi hw much n willing to gif mi money, i jus take lor..hahaha..n mi dad is doin mi model childcare now..WHEEEEE, mam was watchin television, bt she went to hlp too..hehehe..

BUT den agn, all dese work, will i gt mi 'A'?? haiz..watever lah..im goin to hlp do de model too now..bies..

its bin ages since i post stuff here..i dun even noe if i shud pen down mi feelings..so wat if u see, so wat if u gt to noe mi thru here..do u even care?? do u even bother to take note?? do u even make minor changes to urself or suit to mi likin??

i guess dese past few days hv bin quite a roller coaster..i do nt wish to emphasize..bt:

I HATE PEOPLE WHO FLY MY KITE/AEROPLANE
I HATE PEOPLE WHO PROMISE ME STUFF THEN BREAK IT
I HATE PEOPLE WHO TELLS ME LAST MINUTE THINGS
I HATE NOT TO PRE PLAN ACTIVITIES
I HATE PEOPLE FOR NOT KNOWING HOW TO PLACE THEIR PRIORITIES

cant u jus understand mi?? my feelings?? y mus u kip doin all dese stuff to mi?? VERY FUN ISIT?? i totali hate it to de max cn..mi famili dun even do it to mi, if nt i will show face..n dat includes you, you and you!!

as much as i cn, as much as i cud, i will definiteli find tym to mit, go out, chill n slack..I HAVE TO COMPROMISE TO UR WORKIN TIME N THINGS U DO..bt wat abt u?? cant u jus apease mi? cant u jus do things dat i lik too? cant u jus accompani mi whn i nid u?? whn i ordy booked u??

YES, i noe dat u will nt, wud nt, shall nt, cannt GIVE UP THINGS for mi..n i cn, becos IM DUMB..

y do eveybodi thinks dat im strong?? do dey reali noe whu i am inside?? DO YOU?!?!

jus becos of u, mi mood de whole dae is lik drop down to de lowest ground, i seriousli hope n wish dat de floor cn open n eat mi up..whn hurt others, do u even tink hw dey might be? hw had it is for dem? hw much dey are sufferin?? hw long dey are cryin silentli?? YOU DUN CARE DO U..all u noe is dat its nt ur fault, bt other be more understand, more flexible, more grown up..

as much as i cn, i am independent to do things ON MI OWN..bt godamnit, SOME THINGS JUST CANT BE DONE ALONE!!

i reali wan to noe mi position, mi status, ur priorities..i dun wan empty promises, i dun wan to be ditch one side everytym u hv sumthin last min comin up..u so like to dump n dupe mi correct? leavin mi all alone by miself to pick up de piece n pieces dat u hv shattered..hw consideratin of u, hw lovin of u, hw carin of u, hw toughtful of u..

everythin takes two hands to clap..after so long, so much, all de effort ive put in, all de tyms ive scarifice, all de nonsense dat ive done, all de compromises dat i hv to make for u..everythin jus seem to go down de drain, taken for granted, for fun onli..

do u even hv a heart, do u even care abt mi, do u even noe wat i nid? wat i wan? wat i lik? whrs ur compassion??

pls do nt die nw, if nt ur present will go to waste..if u wan die, do so after ur burfdae..aniway, i cant control of hlp u animore..its none of mi businsess to noe whr u go, wat hpnd to u..i cant read ur mind, u dun msg, SO WAT FOR I BOTHER N CARE?!

even if we talk it out, even if we sit down n reconsider, do u tink things will still work out if u dun even bother to put in de effort..u wan mi to go cell, i mus go..fine, i go..bt i jus wan u to msg mi, to let mi noe uve reach ur destination safely or wat..SO DIFFICULT isit? if anithin hpnd, dun blame mi for nt visitin u..

Thursday, January 21, 2010

mi days are short lived..no matter wat gud things dat hv hpnd, it sure gt spoiled sum hw or rather..

AND I HATE IT SERIOUSLI!!

hw i wish de world was kinder..
hw i wish dere are ppl dat i DO NOT hv to SEE..
hw i wish sum ppl jus DISAPPEAR..
hw i wish i cn KILL ppl wifout hvin to go jail..
hw i wish i hv super powers dat let mi fly as n whn i wan, whr i wish..

haiz..i reali hate dis week!! since mon, mi GOD!! i tink its a curse..i wasnt spared on sun, tue, wed, n tdy!! will tmr n sun be better?!?!

sun go out bt was pissed, cos wana see movie bt cant, sian lah, duno whn den i cn see de movies..watever lah, ordy passed, will find one day i go n see..
mon had to go back to sch jus cos sm ppl duno wat to do for project, wan to DISCUSS n DISCUSS n DISCUSS n DISCUSS n....omg..
tue had a nice start to pon sch n eat breakfast, bt on de way to sch, ji tao sian to de max..evenin was even worse...
wed go sch earli, bt end up waitin..sit at canteen lik a fool..studied alone..wanted to gt shoes, bt oso dun hv..hwever, de white shoe is not bad leh, bt duno whr wif wat..
thur jus dun feel lik goin sch so earli, after all debarment period over liao..sumhw after so long, ppl still duno mi..y duno mi?!?! mus i always repeat mi 'name'?!?!

hai, i reali dun feel lik talkin..shud i jus off mi hp?? shud i jus do mi work??

iamreallysickandtiredoflivingthiskindoflife!! pleasehelpme!!

Monday, January 18, 2010

lost and confuse..de world is goin in circles..

i nid to gt hlp, i wan to shout out, i wan to leave n nv return..

is so hard to breathe..dun even talk abt stayin alive..

de world is nv fair, nothin is in ur hands..whn de ball gets to u, u duno wat to do..

wat does it matter to u, wat share hv u got in dis world..

bein independent is one thing, bein alone is another thing..

wat makes u happi might nt make mi happi..so whu can be happi??

de past, de present, de future..y isnt it de Puture??

for all u noe, tmr might be ur last day, wat u gona do abt it??

i nida find mi life, i nida noe mi direction, i nida get a grip..

goodness, i wana break free, i wana break to relax n get away fm de buzzlin town life, de nonstop action packed life, de upcomin roars and boars..

in de end, i wish i cud slp n nv wake up, to go into an endless dream mode dat is pleasant n peaceful, filled wif tranquility and assurance..

Friday, January 15, 2010

aunti, bon yoyage..have fun in hk..rmbr our fish n co ar!! haha..

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

$1 nasi lemak..=)

includes: chips, braised hard boil egg, curry potato, noh hiang, n de usual nasi lemak..anybody wants?? hahahaha..