im eatin lunch nw..bt de food doesnt seem to go down mi throat.....im eatin for de sake of eatin..i nid to gt food into mi tummy..i dun wan to take de stupid gastric medicine..which obviousli i wun.....its nt dat de food does nt taste good, everythin looks de same to mi, smell de smae to mi..even de chess toufu dat im always eatin jus taste lik rice..n it seems lik it is, it might be mi last meal.....de fear n resentment, de anger n frustation, de hope n wishes..isit jus dreams of fairytale stories.....it all seem lik yesterdae onli, bt reality has bin slowli creepin nt, wifout us noticin it.....de differences n similarities are taken to a test, which outcum is nt known of til nw.....isnt wantin n gettin n fightin hard for ur own happiness wonderful..bt wat hpnds whn de fight is down, everythin has given way.....y mus ppl be selfish, y cant dey be selfless..isit a blessin in disguise..isit a test of truth and commitment.....to gif other ppl, to let dem hv deir hapiness, while u are sufferin fm wifin, is dat bein selfless or selfish?? im feelin empty n loneli, i wan mi 5 hims, i wan to go hm, i wana cri out loud for mi heart is heavy, veri heavy.....i started typin at 1330++, bt i onli finish typin at 1355++ whn im done wif mi meal.....i hv nv taken dis long to eat finish mi food..hvin food inside mi tummy is gd, as it had bin empty since after lunch yesterday, except for water n green tea n sweets.....gud dae to all, treasure ur life, fight for ur own happiness, love urself mur den others, n treat urself beta den others.....