de past 2 days were jus lik a dream..everythin pass so fast, dat 1 single wrong move i make or talk, will change everythin..

i dun lik it..stop playin mi out..

sumtyms u treat mi so gud, i dun even believe it..n i wish dat it wun end..

on de other hand, at tyms u hv dis wall n barrier, dat i cant even pass thru..i dun even understand wat u are tinkin at tyms..

i reali duno wat to do..duno wat to tink..duno wat to feel..duno wat to say..

sumthin so small, sumthin dat i lik to do..sumthin dat im playful of, sumthin dat i wan to disturb u abt..n all i gt is ur angri loud boomin voice..

y cn u do wat u lik bt i cant? dun i deserve a chance lik u to be young, to be playful, noisy, wild, etc..

i wan to be back lik mi old self, bt its jus so hard to look at ppl's face n listen to dem against mi own will at tyms..i wan mi rights too..

i wan to be loved too..i wan to feel cherished too..i wan to be happy too..i wan to lead de life i lik to..i wan to be pampered too..

bt y is everythin so hard, so difficult to achieve..everythin is lik right before mi eyes, standin infrontof mi..bt i cant seem to grasp it..i cant catch hold of it..i cant gt into de cold place whr u hv shut urself in..