its bin ages since i post stuff here..i dun even noe if i shud pen down mi feelings..so wat if u see, so wat if u gt to noe mi thru here..do u even care?? do u even bother to take note?? do u even make minor changes to urself or suit to mi likin??

i guess dese past few days hv bin quite a roller coaster..i do nt wish to emphasize..bt:

I HATE PEOPLE WHO FLY MY KITE/AEROPLANE
I HATE PEOPLE WHO PROMISE ME STUFF THEN BREAK IT
I HATE PEOPLE WHO TELLS ME LAST MINUTE THINGS
I HATE NOT TO PRE PLAN ACTIVITIES
I HATE PEOPLE FOR NOT KNOWING HOW TO PLACE THEIR PRIORITIES

cant u jus understand mi?? my feelings?? y mus u kip doin all dese stuff to mi?? VERY FUN ISIT?? i totali hate it to de max cn..mi famili dun even do it to mi, if nt i will show face..n dat includes you, you and you!!

as much as i cn, as much as i cud, i will definiteli find tym to mit, go out, chill n slack..I HAVE TO COMPROMISE TO UR WORKIN TIME N THINGS U DO..bt wat abt u?? cant u jus apease mi? cant u jus do things dat i lik too? cant u jus accompani mi whn i nid u?? whn i ordy booked u??

YES, i noe dat u will nt, wud nt, shall nt, cannt GIVE UP THINGS for mi..n i cn, becos IM DUMB..

y do eveybodi thinks dat im strong?? do dey reali noe whu i am inside?? DO YOU?!?!

jus becos of u, mi mood de whole dae is lik drop down to de lowest ground, i seriousli hope n wish dat de floor cn open n eat mi up..whn hurt others, do u even tink hw dey might be? hw had it is for dem? hw much dey are sufferin?? hw long dey are cryin silentli?? YOU DUN CARE DO U..all u noe is dat its nt ur fault, bt other be more understand, more flexible, more grown up..

as much as i cn, i am independent to do things ON MI OWN..bt godamnit, SOME THINGS JUST CANT BE DONE ALONE!!

i reali wan to noe mi position, mi status, ur priorities..i dun wan empty promises, i dun wan to be ditch one side everytym u hv sumthin last min comin up..u so like to dump n dupe mi correct? leavin mi all alone by miself to pick up de piece n pieces dat u hv shattered..hw consideratin of u, hw lovin of u, hw carin of u, hw toughtful of u..

everythin takes two hands to clap..after so long, so much, all de effort ive put in, all de tyms ive scarifice, all de nonsense dat ive done, all de compromises dat i hv to make for u..everythin jus seem to go down de drain, taken for granted, for fun onli..

do u even hv a heart, do u even care abt mi, do u even noe wat i nid? wat i wan? wat i lik? whrs ur compassion??

pls do nt die nw, if nt ur present will go to waste..if u wan die, do so after ur burfdae..aniway, i cant control of hlp u animore..its none of mi businsess to noe whr u go, wat hpnd to u..i cant read ur mind, u dun msg, SO WAT FOR I BOTHER N CARE?!

even if we talk it out, even if we sit down n reconsider, do u tink things will still work out if u dun even bother to put in de effort..u wan mi to go cell, i mus go..fine, i go..bt i jus wan u to msg mi, to let mi noe uve reach ur destination safely or wat..SO DIFFICULT isit? if anithin hpnd, dun blame mi for nt visitin u..