THURSDAY

he made mi walk in de dark, nearli..doesnt he noe dat im scared?? it hpnd at de foot of mount faber..nw he wants to repeat it..

FRIDAY

i hate bein FORCE to do things i dun lik

mi heart has bin broken since de phone call on wed..nothin gud wil hpnd i guess
i wil hv to walk alone down de long stretch of emptiness
tym to coup up miself away fm de rest of de ppl

u tink u playin game isit?? seriousli?? i duno wat has gotton into..u were de one whu initiated and ask for it..nw u are de one whu wans to end n stop it..why why why?? isit so fun?? isit cos u hv nv bin in one SOOO long?? i duno wats rite up ur mind..

i u knew it in de beginin, wat for stil start?? if u were to noe n forsee de future, wat for question?? y mus u force?? wil anithin gud cum out of it??

i bet u noe mi inside out for im easy to read lik a book..
1) i dun lik ppl to force mi to do things dat i dun lik
2) i hate ppl whu dun let mi hv de freedom to choose wat i wana do
3) i do wat i wan, as n whn i lik, hw i lik it
4) whn i lik, i do..dun lik, i dun do

y cant everythin be taken back?? y cant u eat back ur words?? y cant we jus take day by day n see wat hpnds till de tym cum?? isit so impt..dat u wil gif up mi for dat..i ordy follow u on sat nite..y mus i go on sun?? i hate wakin up earli in de mornin..whn den u wil understand?? i hv probs wakin up on weekdays jus to go to sch, wat mur on weekends..n if i cn wake up earli on weekends n nt weekdays, dats so contradictin..

if u hv to, i rather u kill it nw den ltr..i dun wan to go thru de same pain n torture agn..i hate it whn ppl are playin game..we were given a chance to lik each other..bt u rather choose religion, so be it..in ani case, in ur next life, pls choose de same religion gal so dat u wil nt break her heart..

it is becos i cant fulfil his wishes, his promises..i cant gif him an answer, i cant promise n compromise nw..dats y he wants to call quits..he is tinkin of callin quits..n after quittin, he wana be frens..FOR WAT? F***..he was de one whu started it, nw he might be de one ending it..so y mus i stil oblige n be frens?? jus becos i duno wat wil hpnd in de future, jus cos i dun lik wakin up earli on sun..he wans to gif up everythin we had n share..

n so, he ask: will u hate mi..hw i wish i wil tell him de real answer..hw i wish i cud lie to him..hw i wish i cn be strong..bt all he tinks is dat he dun wana breakdown while workin..den wat abt mi?? onli guys hv tears isit?? hv he ever tot abt mi?? hv he ever understand hw i felt abt all dese??

seriousli, i wonder if i lik de guy cos of himself..or becos he is rich?? or becos he has a belief n religion?? or becos of famili?? i wan to marry, lik de GUY..nt becos of ani other reasons..everybodi said he was perfect, dat he pamper mi..dat every sat he buys food down, on special request..bt am i dat lucki??

i wana slp..i wana gt drunk n stop tinkin abt all dese..if it is to be dis way, den let fate decide..after all, i had no choice, i hv ordy gave in, given in to his demands n request..wat mur cn i ask for, wat mur cn i choose..

its tym to retreat back to whr i belong..i wish to find mi grandfather n unlce n cousin in de other world..hopion dat dyin n leavin dis world wil solve everythin..