GOODBYE..

tym to return back to its rightful owner

dis wil be goin away too

history will be, might be repeatin itself agn..bt dis tym, i am at no fault, i nv do anithin wrong..is nt lik i hv another guy..its nt as dough i smoke agn, dough i might if everythin is confirm n finalise..its nt lik i've hurt him deepli or let him down..

its all becos i cant promise, i cant compromise..dat i wil go church..WAT DE rite!! bt too bad, its de ugly truth, n it hurts..though ive ordy taken a step to go cell..bt to him, it might nt be enuf..

i duno stil wat i mus do..i duno y mus i be forced..i duno y i cant jus take mi own tym n do wat i lik..whu noes, meib whn we are nt together, i start to go church..will be gt back?? i tink dats too late..

we cant be frens animur..u wan ask to tok..ok, hi and bie..it aint easy..i took 9 months to start tokin to james..n its abt adc, stjohn..short n sweet..nothin much..

i guess, if everythin ends..dere goes mi weekli sat lunch dat mi officer envy mi havin..dere goes mi msia trip..i wun nid him to hlp mi in synergy..i wun leave anithin wif him..i wil return him everythin he gave..n i wil take back de letter n photo..

he cares if i drink..bt in wat position does he care..y does he wana care..whu pushed mi to de corner..

he used to say dat i make him choose between his 'late nite outing' frens or mi..bt i wonder dat if he reali understand dat i dun lik him stayin out late cos of safety reasons..BUT NOW, i dare to say dat he is de one whu will be choosin between his 'religion' or mi..i believe u are gona tok to ur fren abt dis n den make a decision..watever, its up to u..once we through, it is for real, n we are through..

it sucks badli..whn i was drunk jus nw, i reali feel lik i was dyin, i wish de car cud bang mi or sumthin jus fall down de sky n bomb de park..i cudnt rmbr anithin, de pain was taken away..de alcohol jus numb everythin..sumhw, i duno hw i ended up hm..whn i woke up,everythin was pain..mi head, mi eyes, mi heart, mi tummy..seriousli no mood to eat, go stjohn, do hm wk..

I HAVE JUST GIVEN UP EVERYTHIN DE MIN U GAVE MI UP, DE MIN U HAD TO TINK N CHOOSE, DE MIN U TELL MI U STIL NID TYM TO TINK..DERE IS NOTHIN MUR TO LIVE..DUN U NOE UR OWN HEART, WHR IT LIES..