Thursday, October 30, 2008

de feulin sucks..

de feuling sucks..i hate it..i wan to go out nw, i dun wana stay at hm..i dun wan to be whr dey ar..y mus u yesterday scold n lecture mi? den tdy ask mi if i eat le nt? jus scold everyday lah, since its your best thing u cn do n provide for mi..heck abt mi lah, wat for wana care abt mi..mi feulings ordy dun bother, dere is nothin mur i ask den for u guys to stay away fm mi..

i dun wish to hurt u all, bt u all hv hurt mi mur den i cn take it le..physicali, emotionali, mentali, wateverli..im immuned in a certain way, in sum sense..bt i wish, all dis cud freakin stop..im an adult nw, please respect mi n mi decisions..wat i wan to wear, wat i wana do, wat tym i cum back, wat i buy..y mus u all stil control mi?

rite nw, 1 is inside mi rm, duno doin wat..1 is at de kitchen, duno doin wat..i left de hall, mi bro's rm, deir rm to go..no whr i cn go if dey are ard..no appetite at all, jus ate 5 mouths n dun fil lik le..totali sucks..if dis continue, meib i cn lose weight?

wat is a home? wat is a famili? wat are parents? wat are children? wat are siblings? WHU AM I TO U? whn kids fil scared, dey wil go hm..whn dey nid a place to hide, dey wil go hm..whn dey nid comfort n hlp, dey wil go hm..everythin, dey wil go hm..wat abt mi? cn i even go hm? cn i even cal dat mi hm?

so missin u nw, if onli u noe..yup, noe u tel mi to heck n dun bother..bt i cant, cos im livin in it..hw i wish i cn jus run away fm everythin..hw i wish i cn jus slp n dun wan up..hw i wish, hw i wish, hw i wish..hai..

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