de feulin sucks..

de feuling sucks..i hate it..i wan to go out nw, i dun wana stay at hm..i dun wan to be whr dey ar..y mus u yesterday scold n lecture mi? den tdy ask mi if i eat le nt? jus scold everyday lah, since its your best thing u cn do n provide for mi..heck abt mi lah, wat for wana care abt mi..mi feulings ordy dun bother, dere is nothin mur i ask den for u guys to stay away fm mi..

i dun wish to hurt u all, bt u all hv hurt mi mur den i cn take it le..physicali, emotionali, mentali, wateverli..im immuned in a certain way, in sum sense..bt i wish, all dis cud freakin stop..im an adult nw, please respect mi n mi decisions..wat i wan to wear, wat i wana do, wat tym i cum back, wat i buy..y mus u all stil control mi?

rite nw, 1 is inside mi rm, duno doin wat..1 is at de kitchen, duno doin wat..i left de hall, mi bro's rm, deir rm to go..no whr i cn go if dey are ard..no appetite at all, jus ate 5 mouths n dun fil lik le..totali sucks..if dis continue, meib i cn lose weight?

wat is a home? wat is a famili? wat are parents? wat are children? wat are siblings? WHU AM I TO U? whn kids fil scared, dey wil go hm..whn dey nid a place to hide, dey wil go hm..whn dey nid comfort n hlp, dey wil go hm..everythin, dey wil go hm..wat abt mi? cn i even go hm? cn i even cal dat mi hm?

so missin u nw, if onli u noe..yup, noe u tel mi to heck n dun bother..bt i cant, cos im livin in it..hw i wish i cn jus run away fm everythin..hw i wish i cn jus slp n dun wan up..hw i wish, hw i wish, hw i wish..hai..

fuck..tdy is a damn fucked up day lah ok..

gals, stop actin as if u all so pretty cn? grow up lah..tink u all mur of petty lah..haha..screw u..

wat the hell..im already 21 years old..helo..TWENTY ONE YEARS OLD..which part of dat do u nt understand? i've should be given my freedom n stuff..under the law, im an adult!! i do nt nid parental consent..so STOP IT wif de CURFEW of 2330 hours, n threaten to change to 2300 hours..i've got a life, i've got frens..i do not wan to be so freakin broin lik u 2 n get coup up at home..im nt a freakin pet ok..

already cum back late, so stil scold for wat? no use lah..lik it wil change the tym? lik it wil make mi cum back earlier? hell NO man..dis totali sucks ok..ppl at a much younger age cn go hm anitym dey wan bt nt ME..its nt lik i always go hm late..i try to reach hm as earli as i cn..

cn u 2 jus tink? i stay at bukit purmei..mi sch at yck..so u noe hw freakin far is dat? tdy we end ard2140..den shower, walk out of sch, go amk to eat..2330 ric amk mrt station to take train hm..ric hm at 0010..stil nt fast enuf ar? ppl dun nid bathe, walk out, wait for bus, wait for train, eat diner, wait for food, etc IZIT!! stop it sia..canot eat wif mi frens ar? wrong isit?

fucked..tdy PH, depavali..bt end up, at 11 plus..mi mam call mi whn i outside usin mi lappy..WHY? cos mi bro vomitted on de floor..its seriousli damn disgustin n gross..call him wake up n wash oso lik no use..we tink he's drunk..mam clean up de place, i hlp to take tissue n newspaper..and all mi dad do was complain n nag..

mi bro's lappy was stil on, so i tok to his classmate - Gilbert..tks alot for watever info u hv..n pls hlp mi look after him tmr..nt sure if he goin doc or goin sch, cos he wun say de..lookin thru his blog nw, i dun even noe til his fren tel mi..n TERENCE, stop drinkin lah, u suck cn..

yar, even though i complain abt him, hate him at tyms, bt this is reali idiotic n childish..WHOEVER THE SHIT ASS YOU ARE..FUCK OFF MAN..DO YOU WANT ME TO DO THIS KINDA PRANK/JOKE/'WHAT HEY GORGEOUS' THINGY TO YOUR SIBLING??? u noe mi bro dun lik all dis, so y stil do it..dun let mi noe whu u are, if nt u are so dead..im gona find til i go dead end..PLEASE GROW UP..if i onli video down hw he vomitted, hw we clean up, hw suckin he look..i wil fuckin open ur damn eyes, whuever u are, n make u see..n ask u to imagine if dat is ur sibling..

cant imagine gt suck ppl livin in dis world..fuck off lah..

Dusk to Dawn 2008..

Pretty Boys + Handsome Girls
min's hse..SW gals rite in front..yeah..
kama hse..photowhorin while waitin for her..
ikhsan n raffi n eddry n hijjah n khaizurah's hse..
kama hse..
red..gren..orange..white..
principal n her 2 bodyguards..
gays..eeee..
james, eddry, idah, ili, charlene, helmi, kenghao, zul, min, nasyita, nadzirah, ikhsan
aikim, ili, charlene, melvin, hash, andy, mohaimin, loretta, jonathan

Pretty Min..fuyoo..

ok, firstly, the dusk to dawn pic, too bad onli jus lidat..

ok, next, de pics fm raya jalan..bt onli got fm mi camera, hash n ili..de rest hvnt take yet..had a fun fun fun tym on saturday..

SATURDAY
woke up earli cos we mittin at yishun at 930..took cab to yishun, den waited for boiboi at north pt de OCBC dere, den i went to change while he waited..he wore de malay clothin dere, bt too big, so make him look fat..haha..i was no beta whn i came out..so hard to walk lah, cos cant open de legs..bt i found a trick, i jus gtta lift de skirt n den wahaha, run oso cn..den wear heels, aiyo, jus nice matchin..so i became a 'green' bean..

went to nearli all de malay ppl hse..except ili's hse..bt boiboi n mi miss hash, helmi, zul, faris hse..cos late le, n we want to go out..bt den oso cant go aniwhr..so we jus go his hse (haha, i noe whr he stay le) n den go back yishun BK to diner..

SUNDAY
freakin tired, dun fil lik goin for ncoc meetin, bt no choice..lucki sir yl push back the meetin tym..n oh yar, go beach roads means i gt to eat mi BELGIUM waffle dip in chocolate..yummy..den suppose to go out wif boiboi, bt he last min canot make it..so nvm kor, i go library to read..

MONDAY
gt campus road mittin wif mr wilfred..nothin much..went for trainin, wilfred came down too..we did abseilin agn..den knn, dey make us run 2.4 agn..bt dis tym wif helmet, harness n every euipment we hv wif us..ARGH..ate mac for diner, jus de apple pie n ice cream..tdy a litle piss cos gt sum ppl damn damn freakin irritatin..felt lik slappin dem..

TUESDAY
gt synergy mittin..haiyo, looks lik i stay in sch beta rite..everyday so busy, nt mittin den cca..dad kip complainin always go hm late..wat cn i do? whu ask de hse so far away? whu ask mi gt so mani things to do..u wan hlp nt? complain n complain onli..

FRIDAY
omg, nw ordy watch until cd 22..suzy lend mi de 'fated to love u'..tel mi nice n will cri..den hor, i see so long, onli cri once leh..hw hw..suzy!! haha..isit i no feelin? or nt sad enuf? or mi tear gland spoil? haha..gt xiangqi championship briefin at 3pm..kena IC for thur, haiyo, for wat..den go eat wif hero, taufu, eugene..den saw helmi, he joined us..den kai came, den boiboi came..

den i left sch, nida go run errand for mam, den i go buy swit for mi n boiboi..de bags ar, freakin heavy man..tmr gona raya jalan wif de adc ppl le..mus wear either formal or traditional clothes..mi god..wait for mi pics..


THURSDAY
nv go sch tdy, cos no lesson, yipee..bt bt, hai, gt nco mittin wif ben n siti..bt bt, ben fly kite..haha..so nothin much to write oso, jus freakin tired..


WEDNESDAY
sch at 12, told alis n suzy i wan rich sch at 1145 to CHOP seat..bt hor, dose gals ar, fight wif us leh..hw ar..hmm, next tym mus cum half an hr earlier?? haha..end at 3pmn bt mr micheal let us off earli, yeah..den went for adc trainin..went wif chalk to take out de ropes n harness n stuff, bt too heavy, so hero n taufu hlp him..helmi took us PT tdy, lik finali he appear n show his face..haha..did 2.4, den we went to do abseilin..COOL man..heade to amk s11 for diner..first tym de grp so so big..shared sambal stingray wif tata n dragonfly..yummy..tmr no lesson..woohoo..

TUESDAY
2nd day of sch..had fun agn..laugh n laugh cos of akid n jiawei..haha..dose 2 laugh damn contagious..din swim wif suzy cos wana go queensway to gt necessary stuff..haf to go back to sch cos gt campus road run mittin at 7pm..feelin sick, hope i dun gt sick, cos i gt so mani things to do, so mani responsibilities on mi shoulder..hai..things aint gettin beta, though i look fine i nsch, infront of mi frens n stuff, bt hai..tink personal stuff n sch stuff n trainin stuff n stjohn stuff mus all seperate..hai..


MONDAY
sch start, n was late lik by 10 mins? gt an angmoh teacher for PM, cool leh..haha..he funi lah, n his accent..wow..tink sum ppl CHANGE le..bt hai, whu am i to say n complain? haha..let dem be ba, cant be bothered oso, if dats wat dey wan..gt new frens, dun wan old frens..sumtyms, i jus wonder man..penny for a tot, anibody wana guess? haha..suppose to go wif suzy n alis to swim, bt rain..den we went to amk pizzahut to lunch n hlp handsome boy celebrate his birthday..rushed hm to change n pack mi bag..den head back to sch cos gt synergy mittin at 6pm..ended ard 9pm plus..went to amk for diner wif boiboi, tata, min..dey so funi lah..goin hm was a disaster..dun bother askin..


SUNDAY
ric hm lik 9am ++..showered n slp..bt end up, kena awaken to go lunch den go popo hse..ric popo hse, slept all de way til diner..haha..tmr sch startin le, yeah, boo..


SATURDAY
had nco mittin wif siti n ben..we 3 are coordinators n its hard work man..sucks..mit at 10 at novena, ended ard 1.30pm..nv go out wif boiboi cos he gt stuff at hm..so i walk ard, den headed hm..jus nice weini called n told mi we gt de 'dusk to dawn'..totali forgot abt it lah..rushed hm to slp cos mus mit at NP at 9pm..freakin tired, grab coffeebean on de way to NP..de event tee is gren..i was wif kama, zul, eddry, weini, elynn, melvin, min, mf at CP 2..we gtta assist to belay n hlp clip de crab..fun fun fun, had a great tym wif de seniors..too bad tata, dragonfly, hero, helmi seperated..dey took lots of pics on de expressway..had to stay out overnite..sumthin is jus wrong wif boiboi, bt he dun wan say..do u noe de feelin sucks whn i kip askin u, n u kip denyin it..i noe u r lyin..

twin crocs..

twin swit bottles..
present..

mittin canceled last min...so went out tdy, go lunch n see movie at cine level 9..headed to vivo..went to buy swit fm candy empire, go eat ben n jerry icecream, bought 3 story books, wanted to go GV see movie, bt tym slot nt rite..

sat at de open sky park, played cards..den i gt presen, of cos i oso gt prepare mi present..den went over to hawker dere for diner..yeah, de cound tracks of mama-mia, cool leh..hehe..n check out dat smal pillow, haha..

done dis in obs, found it whn was packin mi books..

fatty, bombom, charlene..
photo frame..
jamlene, fatty, bombom, charmes..

had lots of things to do tdy..went to tiong to get de photos develop..end up bought sum food back for lunch..did sum plannin for nco course..follow up de volunteer thingy after mdm LY fac de letter over..retrieve de tym table n class list n email + details fm de briefin to de 14 of dem..was makin mi tym table to put in landyard..so decided to ask hash, ying, alis, rach, suzy if dey wanted oso nt, so 'on de way' jus do for dem too..n its done le..yeah..look damn colourful..did de photo frame for de pics..

pissed wif dadi for naggin n tokin shits..dun bother abt mi lah, i noe wat to do..jus do ur own things ok..leave mi stuff alone..tks..

wait for de FLASH lah..

hmm, akid, pick ur CHOICE..

had tep briefin yesterday, sori hash, suppose to mit u bt was late..end up cab to sch..briefin was such a bore..took down notes n stuff..gtta email dem on thur after i retrieve de tym table..so waitin for de tym table..went to amk to catch 'hse bunny' wif hash, suzy, ying, alis, rach..so funi lah..we took couple seats..rach n suzy, alis n char, hash n ying..alis kena sit inbetween mi n suzy, n tink she was drowned by our singin..haha..hse bunny was fun, bt i saw before le, bt nvm, cn go laugh agn..met boiboi at mrt station, den head to novena for lunch n walk walk..den went to causeway pt for mi meetin..boiboi waited lah, so gd, den sent mi hm..meetin was a blast, felt slpy n tired, cos such a bore..

tdy went out wif boiboi agn to catch a movie, den lunch at suntec..den go for meetin agn..productive bt tired..so mani things to do, so little tym? haha..cn be done de..tmr gona stay hm to do de work n sent emails out..cant wait for fri to cum..

bon yovage..

tdy dey depart for gunung stong n gunung ayam..guys, hv fun n cum back in a piece..nt i dun wan go ok, cos lionelteo dun let..nt boiboi dun wan go, cos he gt attachment..our sincere apologies..promise nt to do funi things whn u guys r nt ard..hahaha..cum back soon..

tmr gt TEP briefing, aniway, hash sent mi de class we are in..haha..char, hash, ying, rach, suzy, alis, akid, nathan, jerome, jiawei, zehan, heemwei, ange, yat, sathish..well well..shud i complain or shud i ask fro a better arrangement? lets hope for de beta in days, weeks, months to cum..

does dis look lik food? haha..

dis look lik food too rite..

hmm, woke up earli to lik go eat brunch wif famili..den went to becum maid at supermarket..wth lor, was rainin..shud hv stayed hm n slp, so shiok lah..hmm, came hm n pack de grocery..make chocolate + fruit to eat..turned out look lik 'shit'? haha..did sum art n colourin..den went to read bt end up fal aslp..wake up n cook maggi for diner..

mam made desert n wanton for mi whn she came back..didi cook meesua n i stole sum..tdy was a borin day..shud hv gone out bt no whr to go..ani ideas?

emo pics..

swensens icecream..courtesy of MF..
mahjong session..
cards 1..andy yong..
cards 2..andy leong..

went to PS to mit chalk, mf, hero, taufu..mit wif chalk n mf first, sat at mac to drink coffee n chat, waitin for de other 2 andyS..taufu came, leong came, den went to swensen..wif coutesy of mf, had icecream (free, THANKS)..haha..6 diff flavours (coffee, macadamia nut, cookies n cream, pistachio almond, chocolate peanut buttercup, mocha almond fudge)..den chalk went to collect his bro's gf laptop cos went to do de gmask, walau, so long lah..end up we went carrefour to buy stuff over to hero's hse..goin dere for mahjong session..

played mahjong..den boiboi, tata, dragonfly came..so total 8 of us crash his hse..play mahjong, tok rubbish, play cards, do forfeit, play taboo, clean up, everythin jus went so fine..had lots of fun fun fun..meib next tym we chalet lah..came hm late, lucki din gt scolded..hehe..

Lunch at marina's seoul garden..

crocs -mi, boiboi, jiejie..
mi new tutu..de other side is missin..
check out mi nw crocs..mi partner is missin..

had lunch buffet at marina's seoul garden wif mars, hash, alis, suzy, ying..bein de photographer, of cos dun hv mi face..which is gd, cos look at all de gluttons..hahaha..okok, mi oso lah yup..we ate alot alot, esp mi, so whu wana eat buffet, cn always call mi, bt yup, nt always cos nida save money..aniway, ying go dere eat vege onli..wth..haha..we hvnt eat finish, take summur..power rite, n all our ideas of clearin de food we cant finish, wow..n godamnit, i forget to brin mars present, so shit..nvm, tue cn pass to her..

well, its so gd to see mi classmates agn after de long holiday..walk walk at marina n well, mi, suzy, alis, hash SAW de price tag of mi necklace..$238.00!! omg lah, hw much in total he spent on mi burfday, dats reali crazy..n i dun hv so much money to buy u back sumthin of de same price..hmm, hash told mi nt to break boiboi's heart..dun tink i bear too oso lah..walau, im jus speechless cos mi 'crystal' cos so much..haha..suzy'z sharp eyes saw sum soap stuck onto de pendant n we went to gt it wash n clean..it SPARKS after dat..

continue walk walk..headed to suntec, headed to bugis..den i left de grp..gtta go mit dragonfly n tata..den boiboi came to join after work..n we gt de crocs dat we wanted..went to chat n had diner..freakin tired..tmr mahjong session at hero's hse..power lah, dun play money, we play drink/food/forfeit ok..hehe..

THANKS alot gals..for de lunch, so mis u gals..ying, tok mur, open up, n ur hair is TOO long..haha..
THANKS alot to tata, dragonfly, boiboi..for thur n fri..njoyed miself..tata n dragonfly, pls be save whn goin to stong yup..

dragonfly n human..

climbers who were in de video..
dubdub..
plaza sing n mind's cafe..

THURSDAY
went for BTT, fail lah, sian, mus rebook..n mi didi pass, wth, nt fair lor..50 questions, 45 correct to pass..walau, meib i gt 44 leh..haha..nvm lah, jus try agn lor..went to sch to mit dragonfly..suppose to go mi tata de, bt ltr lah, we slack ard first..mf's slipper kena hook rite at de top 2 panels..den she took lik forever to tink n in de end, helmi go hlp her..after all, who de mastermind..haha..dragonfly haf bin askin mf since lik 1 to 3 if she wan to join us, bt mf jus nv answer..end up, we jus left to yck to mit tata, dun care..waste tym onli lor..

met tata, took train to PS, went to cathay to book tickets first for de hse bunny, damn funi n cool lor..heade back to PS, walk walk, see stuff..omg, de crocs hp pouch damn nice..i wan, bt mus see big boss wan nt leh..noe he oso wan crocs, bt to wear de..argh..play arcade, ate kfc for diner, had lots of laugh..shop ard for boiboi's present..duno wat to make, duno hw to make..nvm lah, stil long hor, take mi tym..haha..went to mind's cafe to play game..so fun..whn's de next round..feelin sooo tired..

WEDNESDAY
went out wif boiboi..catch a movie n jus hang out..lunch had buffet at marina, cook ourselves summur..ate til damn full lah, next tym mus go to make ice cream, jus de ice cream wil do..went to toysrus to look for toys..cos its CHILDREN's DAY..nothin interestin, wanted to pop into gelare, bt tummy stil full..went to esplanade to sit by the water front..so cool lah, wif de wind blowin..tym reali flies..