..if i love u, u will die..if u love me, u will die..

2010-04-21T01:08:00.002+08:00

hai, charity fair meetin jus over..goodness, cant believe i finish it in less than 2 hours..haha..

went to check out the bean bag stuff..boiboi wan to mke for his car, bt i mus do research for him..aiyoyo..am i his secretary?? haha..

gone out wif mingfei to find presents..got it..

cant wait for fri..can mit auntie n eat durian ice..hehe..

2010-04-19T16:59:00.002+08:00

has been more den 1 month since i update blog..is nt i gt no tym, is i lazy? haha..

sch has been over for quite sum tym..

njoying life rite nw..workin at camps is uber fun..goin for overseas trip is oso veri veri fun..

sum of mi fren are nw workin, sum slackin lik mi, sum waitin to go army, sum waitin to go uni..

gud for dose whu noe wat to do in life, jiayou..for dose out dere workin ur ass out, take a break at tyms..aint gud to work so much..

i lik wat im doin, i hv gud parents whu support mi in wat i do..dey dun let mi work whn im studyin, dey dun force mi to work all dae since im so free..

i luv mi parents..cant wait to go on holidae wif dem..yeahs..

fri gt birthday celebration agn..wat shud i do to disturb dem?? sat goin to jb..cant wait to eat, slack, shop..wheets..

2010-03-07T22:44:00.002+08:00

so long nv upload pictures le..gt so mani to upload..

done durin studyin at sch library..durin hero's birthday..=)

OMG!! whr gt ppl gif u drink DIS LITTLE BIT!! haha..
pork ribs?? yummy yummy..im eatin BONG!!

2010-03-06T17:04:00.001+08:00

shits..

im totali pissed to de max..

stop controllin ME!! u tink its for mi own good, u tink its for mi safety, u tink its cos i cn do wat u cant..dats y u are restrictin mi ??

i will rebel..

everybodi hv deir own rights..further, im 23..dun nid parental consent..even if i were to go marry now, u cant stop mi..

for god's sake, let mi do wat i wan can?? at dis age, ppl go partying. clubbin, hangin out late..wat abt mi??

hv u spare a tot for mi feelin?? hv u spare a tot of mi pride n image??

i do nt wan to live n regret cos of sumthings which i cant do cos U RESTRICT MI to doi things..

shits..mus i even start prayin for u to RELEASE MI?!?!

2010-03-02T18:24:00.002+08:00

charlene is a hungri gal..

bt she has nothin to eat..

so shud i go out on thur or fri?? bt go out is wif different ppl leh..hw hw hw??

tmr after dental gona mit ahma n do zone cohesion stuff le..omgz..den ltr goin out eat lo!! yeah yeah..=)

thur gt zone meeting..n zone cohesion meetin..

sians..so lazy to go out..prefer slackin leh..

2010-02-28T00:22:00.002+08:00

charlene loves holiday..

charlene loves to slp..

charlene loves to eat..

charlene loves to play..

charlene loves herself..

charlene loves her fatty bombom..

charlene loves him..

2010-02-27T01:22:00.002+08:00

charlene is a hapi gal..=)

ive gt wat i wanted..i dun nid other things le..

cant be bothered wif u..y shud i be angri..i shud jus laugh it off..

gt mittin ltr..haiz..

steppin out of mi 'shell'?? watever..haha..

i noe wat u wan..i noe wat u hope n wish for..i noe wat u tink..

rmbr i told u dun force mi..=) we shall wait n see..hahahaha..

be gud to mi lor..den i shall do things dat u lik..hehe..

2010-02-26T00:08:00.002+08:00

finali exams over..jus wana pass it n gt out..

wan to start mi next chapter in life le..

hate ppl whu fly mi kite..seriousli WTF!!

damn it..an eye for an eye..bt haiz..wat cn i do..

aint i suppose to forgive n forget, give n take..

hopfuli dose wif RELIGION bear dat in mind..no nid mi to remin u!!

wan to clear things up, bt i tink de hard tyms is goin to be over soon..hope everythin will go on smoothli..cos i cant let go..

2010-02-23T00:09:00.002+08:00

1 paper down..2 more to go..

CF is OMG..lucki gt siti as secretary..lucki we are babis together since sec 1..tks babe..

as such, i will hlp u out for fac..though i am so pissed wif ahben!! haiz..

n yeah, im gona be a camp instructor soon..=) cant wait to start..hehe..den gt money too..

cant wait for feb to end..hope mar will be a gud month..

i lub u..i still do..n i always will..

2010-02-20T23:47:00.003+08:00

am so hungri..bt den its ok..eat or nt no difference..whu cares aniway, meib mi own stomach cn become smaller?? haha..

i say 10 lines, u say 1 line..do u even noe hw to READ mi msg?? do u even noe hw to REPLY mi msg?? do u even noe hw de FEELING is??

all u do is hv ur own fun..n nt care abt others..
all u do is gif mi false hope..n pretend nothin hpnd..
all u do is nt answer mi n let mi continue talkin n assumin wat i see, hear, think..
all u do is ur own way..n nt even ask hw i feel abt it..

y are u lidat?? isit u or mi dat change??

u are sensitive to wat ppl say to u, say abt u..BUT are u sensitive to others ard u?? esp ur loved ones?? god noes if im stil in dat category..fcuk..

IT IS BETTER TO KNOW AND GET SAD, ANGRY, DISAPPOINTED..RATHER THAN NOT KNOW AND KEEP WONDERING..

2010-02-20T20:18:00.001+08:00

Everythin seem to be goin away..

Lifes a bitch..

Ppl shudnt hv ani emotion or feelings at all, dat will be so gud..

We shud nt hv ani strings attached..

Can I onli care n bother abt miselfn nt others??

I love u, bt do u even love mi..

Hi

2010-02-20T20:17:00.001+08:00

2010-02-20T00:10:00.002+08:00

de past 2 days were jus lik a dream..everythin pass so fast, dat 1 single wrong move i make or talk, will change everythin..

i dun lik it..stop playin mi out..

sumtyms u treat mi so gud, i dun even believe it..n i wish dat it wun end..

on de other hand, at tyms u hv dis wall n barrier, dat i cant even pass thru..i dun even understand wat u are tinkin at tyms..

i reali duno wat to do..duno wat to tink..duno wat to feel..duno wat to say..

sumthin so small, sumthin dat i lik to do..sumthin dat im playful of, sumthin dat i wan to disturb u abt..n all i gt is ur angri loud boomin voice..

y cn u do wat u lik bt i cant? dun i deserve a chance lik u to be young, to be playful, noisy, wild, etc..

i wan to be back lik mi old self, bt its jus so hard to look at ppl's face n listen to dem against mi own will at tyms..i wan mi rights too..

i wan to be loved too..i wan to feel cherished too..i wan to be happy too..i wan to lead de life i lik to..i wan to be pampered too..

bt y is everythin so hard, so difficult to achieve..everythin is lik right before mi eyes, standin infrontof mi..bt i cant seem to grasp it..i cant catch hold of it..i cant gt into de cold place whr u hv shut urself in..

2010-02-18T23:41:00.002+08:00

charlene is veri hapi for de past 2 days..

thank u so mani much..muack..=)

gud break fm all de dumb studyin..

lets clear it once n for all..

n CAMPS!! here i come..EARN MONEY TIME..whee..=)

2010-02-17T14:18:00.003+08:00

forget to write abt mi frog..=)

finali got to eat it at geylang..=) if nt at bugis oso cn..

sumtyms, dreamin is also gud for de brain..=)

i cnt hlp bt feel loved..n its a gud thing rite?? haha..

2010-02-17T14:18:00.002+08:00

studied de first 5 lctures of HBO le..goodness..total madness man..still gt 1 and 1/2 more weeks..mus chiong all de way..

im veri stressed up..im bein taught to gif n take, bt dats wat others are taught too..YET y dun dey DO IT, BT i MUST DO IT?? aint fair at all..

i hv to swallow down mi pride, mi voices down..i wan to voice out, wan to show mi discomfort, disagree, stick to de routine..bt i jus cant, nothin seem to come out..im lik being forced to kip quiet, forced to stay silent, forced to listen n obey wifout ani questions..

y are we goin back to de old era..whr de ladies or young ones hv to listen to de males, de elders, de parents, etc..isit singapore a democratic country, whr ppl cn feel free to voice out opinions, unhappiness, love, care, anger, crazyiness??

to dem, it wun matter, for i hv to change..mi n miself mus change for de benefit of others..bt dey dun hv to change..dey CANT even TRY to change for mi..y isit lidat?? isit it gud to change for de beta?? bt wat if i change n i become different? will it hlp?? will it work??

im seriousli worked up, jus for no reason..nt dat dey care aniway..dey cant even be bothered if im alive or dead..dey wun even noe cos dey dun even msg or call or say something..so wat for i care, wat for i bother rite..sice everythin revolve ard dem, so be it..i jus do mi things n dats it..jus dun step on mi tail..

everythin dun seem to be in place..it looks lik ive lost mi chance, mi status, mi home, mi comfort, mi signs, miself..everythinis in a mess rite nw..i dun even noe if wat i see, i hear, i feel, i taste, i smell, i suspect, i realise, i know is TRUE or FALSE..

who must change? ME who's fault? ME who's problem? ME who must listen? ME who must keep quiet? ME who must eat? ME who must follow? ME who must try? ME who must accomodate? ME who must help out? ME who must care? ME fucklah, everything oso ME..

2010-02-14T01:44:00.002+08:00

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR..cant wait to gt mi CNY red packets..

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY..to all de lovers out dere..cherish ur loved one..

cant believe 1 yr pass so fast jus liat..wat damn luck..last yr n dis yr all so shitty..y is history seem to be lik repeatin itself..i hate it..

im so lost..i duno wat to do..i feel out of place..i wan to gt bck to whr i belong..

i cant stop tinkin..i cant concentrate..exams are round de corner, rite after cny..whr gt mood..

i feel so useless..i nida supress mi feeling within miself n nt show it out..i nida control hw i feel n reflect..i nida cri alone whr nobodi cn see n lecture mi..i nid sumbodi for mi to learn on n brin mi to greater heights..

will sumbodi pls step forward to care n concern abt mi..im weak rite now..so weak..

2010-02-08T00:34:00.002+08:00

finali entrep is OVER..

nw is war wif ccrm, ptfl, hbo..

bt i noe i cn do it..cos mi ptfl grp n hbo grp members are BEST..all de way peeps..hwever, i mus put in more effort for ccrm..haiz..

aniway, super duper pissed durin de week towards entrep..bt hell lah..u say ppl, bt actuali u sayin urself..y gif all de talks n msgs n msns..y nt jus do de thing n show thru action?? GOODNESS!! y mus i be s kapo to stay up late n find de legos n do de stuff!! ARGH!!

i wash car tdy..haha..=) so fun jus wif him washin n playin..bt its mi first tym, i mus learn more..i mus do beta..i wan to hv fun wif him as long as i cn, even if is jus washin car..hehe..=)

mi n mi big mouth, go tell i gt no lessons, end up mus do errand..wahaha..

2010-02-01T23:59:00.001+08:00

..HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOIBOI..

2010-01-31T22:37:00.003+08:00

im damn freakin hungri..hv bin on a partial hunger strike..

sat: drink green tea all de way till diner at 6plus..den eat 3 sushi, eat white carrot cake..till 8 plus, den drink 2 yakult befor starting de nite cycling..along de way, drink water, mouthful of coffee n h2o..finali ric ecp mac, ate bits n pieces of biscuits n finish mi green tea..

sun: came hm, pompom, slp, wash dirty clothes, etc..den wake up, nothin to eat, din even go out, ate mam's sweet potato soup, bt mus share wif whole famili..

nw damn HUNGRI!! roar..sian, hw long cn i last?? i see food, bt i dun feel like eatin..i cn cook, bt i feel so lazy..i wan to eat, bt gt no appetite..

IM SO FAT!! IM SO SAD! IM SO BAD!! IM SO FAD!! ARGH!!

ive cleared all de doubts, all de probs, all de issued..ive died, ive recharged, ive awaken fm dead..

I LOVE MI PARENTS?? haha..mam finali paid for didi's shoes dat ive paid bt din ask her for de money..since she ask mi hw much n willing to gif mi money, i jus take lor..hahaha..n mi dad is doin mi model childcare now..WHEEEEE, mam was watchin television, bt she went to hlp too..hehehe..

BUT den agn, all dese work, will i gt mi 'A'?? haiz..watever lah..im goin to hlp do de model too now..bies..

2010-01-31T14:58:00.002+08:00

its bin ages since i post stuff here..i dun even noe if i shud pen down mi feelings..so wat if u see, so wat if u gt to noe mi thru here..do u even care?? do u even bother to take note?? do u even make minor changes to urself or suit to mi likin??

i guess dese past few days hv bin quite a roller coaster..i do nt wish to emphasize..bt:

I HATE PEOPLE WHO FLY MY KITE/AEROPLANE
I HATE PEOPLE WHO PROMISE ME STUFF THEN BREAK IT
I HATE PEOPLE WHO TELLS ME LAST MINUTE THINGS
I HATE NOT TO PRE PLAN ACTIVITIES
I HATE PEOPLE FOR NOT KNOWING HOW TO PLACE THEIR PRIORITIES

cant u jus understand mi?? my feelings?? y mus u kip doin all dese stuff to mi?? VERY FUN ISIT?? i totali hate it to de max cn..mi famili dun even do it to mi, if nt i will show face..n dat includes you, you and you!!

as much as i cn, as much as i cud, i will definiteli find tym to mit, go out, chill n slack..I HAVE TO COMPROMISE TO UR WORKIN TIME N THINGS U DO..bt wat abt u?? cant u jus apease mi? cant u jus do things dat i lik too? cant u jus accompani mi whn i nid u?? whn i ordy booked u??

YES, i noe dat u will nt, wud nt, shall nt, cannt GIVE UP THINGS for mi..n i cn, becos IM DUMB..

y do eveybodi thinks dat im strong?? do dey reali noe whu i am inside?? DO YOU?!?!

jus becos of u, mi mood de whole dae is lik drop down to de lowest ground, i seriousli hope n wish dat de floor cn open n eat mi up..whn hurt others, do u even tink hw dey might be? hw had it is for dem? hw much dey are sufferin?? hw long dey are cryin silentli?? YOU DUN CARE DO U..all u noe is dat its nt ur fault, bt other be more understand, more flexible, more grown up..

as much as i cn, i am independent to do things ON MI OWN..bt godamnit, SOME THINGS JUST CANT BE DONE ALONE!!

i reali wan to noe mi position, mi status, ur priorities..i dun wan empty promises, i dun wan to be ditch one side everytym u hv sumthin last min comin up..u so like to dump n dupe mi correct? leavin mi all alone by miself to pick up de piece n pieces dat u hv shattered..hw consideratin of u, hw lovin of u, hw carin of u, hw toughtful of u..

everythin takes two hands to clap..after so long, so much, all de effort ive put in, all de tyms ive scarifice, all de nonsense dat ive done, all de compromises dat i hv to make for u..everythin jus seem to go down de drain, taken for granted, for fun onli..

do u even hv a heart, do u even care abt mi, do u even noe wat i nid? wat i wan? wat i lik? whrs ur compassion??

pls do nt die nw, if nt ur present will go to waste..if u wan die, do so after ur burfdae..aniway, i cant control of hlp u animore..its none of mi businsess to noe whr u go, wat hpnd to u..i cant read ur mind, u dun msg, SO WAT FOR I BOTHER N CARE?!

even if we talk it out, even if we sit down n reconsider, do u tink things will still work out if u dun even bother to put in de effort..u wan mi to go cell, i mus go..fine, i go..bt i jus wan u to msg mi, to let mi noe uve reach ur destination safely or wat..SO DIFFICULT isit? if anithin hpnd, dun blame mi for nt visitin u..

2010-01-21T20:01:00.002+08:00

mi days are short lived..no matter wat gud things dat hv hpnd, it sure gt spoiled sum hw or rather..

AND I HATE IT SERIOUSLI!!

hw i wish de world was kinder..
hw i wish dere are ppl dat i DO NOT hv to SEE..
hw i wish sum ppl jus DISAPPEAR..
hw i wish i cn KILL ppl wifout hvin to go jail..
hw i wish i hv super powers dat let mi fly as n whn i wan, whr i wish..

haiz..i reali hate dis week!! since mon, mi GOD!! i tink its a curse..i wasnt spared on sun, tue, wed, n tdy!! will tmr n sun be better?!?!

sun go out bt was pissed, cos wana see movie bt cant, sian lah, duno whn den i cn see de movies..watever lah, ordy passed, will find one day i go n see..
mon had to go back to sch jus cos sm ppl duno wat to do for project, wan to DISCUSS n DISCUSS n DISCUSS n DISCUSS n....omg..
tue had a nice start to pon sch n eat breakfast, bt on de way to sch, ji tao sian to de max..evenin was even worse...
wed go sch earli, bt end up waitin..sit at canteen lik a fool..studied alone..wanted to gt shoes, bt oso dun hv..hwever, de white shoe is not bad leh, bt duno whr wif wat..
thur jus dun feel lik goin sch so earli, after all debarment period over liao..sumhw after so long, ppl still duno mi..y duno mi?!?! mus i always repeat mi 'name'?!?!

hai, i reali dun feel lik talkin..shud i jus off mi hp?? shud i jus do mi work??

iamreallysickandtiredoflivingthiskindoflife!! pleasehelpme!!

2010-01-18T00:34:00.003+08:00

lost and confuse..de world is goin in circles..

i nid to gt hlp, i wan to shout out, i wan to leave n nv return..

is so hard to breathe..dun even talk abt stayin alive..

de world is nv fair, nothin is in ur hands..whn de ball gets to u, u duno wat to do..

wat does it matter to u, wat share hv u got in dis world..

bein independent is one thing, bein alone is another thing..

wat makes u happi might nt make mi happi..so whu can be happi??

de past, de present, de future..y isnt it de Puture??

for all u noe, tmr might be ur last day, wat u gona do abt it??

i nida find mi life, i nida noe mi direction, i nida get a grip..

goodness, i wana break free, i wana break to relax n get away fm de buzzlin town life, de nonstop action packed life, de upcomin roars and boars..

in de end, i wish i cud slp n nv wake up, to go into an endless dream mode dat is pleasant n peaceful, filled wif tranquility and assurance..

2010-01-15T20:53:00.001+08:00

aunti, bon yoyage..have fun in hk..rmbr our fish n co ar!! haha..

2010-01-13T15:20:00.001+08:00

$1 nasi lemak..=)

includes: chips, braised hard boil egg, curry potato, noh hiang, n de usual nasi lemak..anybody wants?? hahahaha..

2010-01-11T22:17:00.001+08:00

mummy n daddy love me

for baby faith
definiteli a girl

goodness, she is soooooooo SMALL

pretty?

2010-01-11T21:54:00.003+08:00

taiwan magnets fm loudhailer darling

some flower girly spray fm suzy
germany tea fm ah lau

money chocolates fm germany

sweets dat i snatch over

wana make a guess?

its chewing gum lah!

coin purse fm swiz..goodness, it cost $10!!

2010-01-05T09:37:00.002+08:00

GOOOOOOOOOOOOD MOOOOOOORRRRRNINNNNNNNNGGGGG

harlow ppl, first day of sch for mi..=) and i rci at 905?!?! crazy..haha..bt wat to do, mit for project, as usual, as xpected sumbodi nv cum..wat cn i say?? haha..

open hse is cumin le..i tink is thur, fri, sat?? bt whu cares..haha..i gt project n stjohn n beta stuff to do..let de juniors take charge, im too old for dat ordy..

well, ive decided to go trainin on wed..god noes y lah ar..bt i wil leave earli as i hv a meetin on thur..nida do finish ppt slides, bt im uncertain of de outcum..no promises sir..n i still hv to read de KAQT guidelines..goodness..

hope to see ah alu in class ltr..

2010-01-04T23:23:00.002+08:00

sat mornin gt de dumb wake up prank call by mi cadet..am so mad..gona fail him?? haha..i shall read de rules n regulations of de course, n see wat part i cn mark him down..so much so for his bad luck, so much so for listenin to mi fellow officers to call mi in de middle of de nite, so much so for bein stupid n nt tink rationali..i dun care if u cried after dat or wat..cos i din even scold him, im veri nice..i asked for his name n grp n corps, i even said thank you!! haha..watch out on thur, lets see if u will pass..50-50 ok..bt i wun be so bad, i wil let u pass, bt i wil gif u ur due punishment dat u deserve..

went to hospital to see popo..she in icu..haiz..her ECG n BP so low..n all he said was popo is old..haha..if nt old i stil call popo for wat? apprentli whn she was in de nursin hm, she was on de oxygen tank thingy for 4 days le, beore de doc dere sent her to NUH..wat de rite?!?!? bt cant blame de doc, mi popo is veri stubborn..n on new yr day, we stil cn go karaok, hv fun, even de parents have some minor dispute n meeting abt popo n stuff..argh!! den i rush to mit him to do mi iphone..haiz, duno y cant log in, n download games..until i pek chek..haha..

sun i wake up so earli, bt dere is stil a pig whu wakes up ltr den mi..haha..de princess is a gud gal..=) wana go JB leh, wana mit auntie aikim..bt all mi sat in JAN are fully BOOKED!! argh..sun i go to his fren's hse to do mi iphone agn..haha..n it works..bt i stil cant download games!! argh..jack's hse is NICE..=) n he walk ard, askin so much as if his hse..haha..bt i asked too..=) cos im renovatin mi hse..dad n mam will renovate once mi n didi grad!! hahahah..=) cant wait man..

tdy no sch..elearn n CRM teacher on leave?? hahahaha..bt hv to mit joyce online to do etp work..FINALI i gt all de survey results le..n we cn wok on it..haha..splitted de work n go do..n i went to slp..haha..wanted to go tiong, bt lazy..had so much fun playin iphone games..hehehe..

hell is cumin..i cn feel it..tks so much for pushin everythin to mi..nobodi noes, bt god noes..hahaha..if u tink im tokin abt u, den u are guilty..bt im nt sayin out..dun force mi to, if nt i wil smack u..haha..nites..

2010-01-02T14:33:00.002+08:00

karaok n diner n go mi uncle's nw hse..wat a day to spent new yr..bt still, gt to slp, relax, drink, mahjong, sing song..haha..stil nt so bad celebratin wif famili after all..dey had sum disputes n stuff agn over mi popo..bt wat to do..ppl old ordy are lidat wat..nt sure if dey hv came up wif de best solutions..bt well..all de quarrelin over..went to lao pa sa for diner..so so onli..tink we ordy fm wrong stall?? cos nt veri nice..ric hm n BANG..mam gt a msg fm mi uncle..popo is in hospital..wth rite..haha..so qiao..so goin to hospital for a trip ltr..

drink..nt bad..bt onli 16%..left overs at mi hse..anibod wants?

mi new found frens..squeeky pig is indeed noisy..=)
fm mdmliyen, fm japan..bt of cos, made in china!!

goodnes..BEST gift ive ever receive fm SUMBODI whu went anihc for 8 days..

alrite, finali mi iphone has been jailbreakED..since july till NOW..hahahaha..gona learn hw to use de applications ltr..gona learn hw to download n transfer stuff..

wana pack mi room, bt tink tmr lah..jus kip de bags onli, no big deal..haha..

cant wait to gradin march..so mam cn renovate our hse..YEAH, after 22 yrs..i cn gt a new room outlook, new stuff, n design miself..i gurantee it will be lik a pig sty..=) or meib it will turn into a princess room?? anibodi wans to hlp mi design de room for FREE..haha..of gif mi ideas?? wat to get, wat to put in, wat to buy??

i wan things dat are pratical, saves space, cheap, good, nice, etc..hahaha..n i guess mi 4 cupboards or clothes will be greatli lessen..cant wait to gif away stuff dat i dun wear..gona throw away dumb books, notes dat are of no use!! haha..oh yar, n mi shoes, 1 cupboard still nt enuf leh!! mi bags too, i nid more space for mi shoes n bags n soft toys..how how how?!?!?!?!

2010-01-02T02:27:00.002+08:00

seriousli, im pissed!! at 01:07am, i received a call, n it lasted for 1 minute..at dis hr, ppl hv ordy gone to bed, yet tot whu will call..meib it is an emergency, meib its sumthin urgent, meib its sumthin impt..bt guess WAT!! it was PRANK call..beta still, it was by mi CADET fm stjohn..

de male cadet called n spoke wif mi..*inbetween dese few sentences..dere were pauses..dere were oso laughter n noise at de back..it SOOOOOOOOO OBVIOUS dat dey are playing..it mus be sume game or forefeit or nonsense..*

he: hi mdm charlene, are u aslp..

me: whu are u..

he: im nevin fm adv..

me: y u call me..

he: hv u eaten..

me: y are u askin such questions..

he: i miss u..bye..

at 01:09, i called back and spoke for abt 53 seconds..dis tym, called back de number dat mi cadet use..best part..de SHE whu pick up mi call n tok to mi is mi FELLOW INSTRUCTOR, whu is 2 yrs older and senior den me..n SHE cn say dat she is de cadet fren!! well done..i didnt noe dat STJOHN produce such ppl..

me: harlow, cn i speak to nevin pls..

she: im nevin fren..

me: cn u put nevin on de line..

she: ok wait..

he: harlow..

me: are u nevin..

he: yes..

me: are u fm adv..

he: yes..

me: whu ur grp instructor..

he: wilson..

me: ok tks, bye..

at 01:11am, i msg de cadet's GI..to double confirm if de cadet is reali his grp..n guess wat, i received a call rite immediateli n we spoke fo 30 seconds briefli..

gi: harlow mdm..

me: yes wat isit..

gi: abt de call jus nw, u noe we hv bbq rite..n we are playin a game..

me: so..

gi: its his forefeit to make a call..

me: ok tks, i noe wat to do..

WAT DE FUCK!! wat game, do u tink i care..dere are limits in playin game!! n to call ppl up in de middle of de nite..WTH!! im am goin to make de cadet fail his course..gud luck to dose officers whu were involved..im sori, bt its jus too much to wake mi up..i hate it..wan to play, oso gt a limit..

*cadet, if ur instructor asku to die, will u go die?? i cant believe u are an advance cadet wif no brains?? good luck to u..

2009-12-31T11:42:00.002+08:00

alvin n de chipmunks were great..esp theodore..=) so loves him lah..small cute fat furry bar..hw i wish he was mi pet..

well, ordy finish vaccumin de floor liaos..nw moppin halfway..

apprentli, dere arent ani kind souls whu cn hlp mi wif dese chores..wat to do..

jus wana gt over n done wif..so i cn go out n party ltr..dress or skirt, it makes no difference rite??

ah lau is cumin back ordy, she is flyin..either in dubai or on de plane..hv a safe journey back..

next movie date??

2009-12-29T22:44:00.002+08:00

IM GONA SEE ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS 2 TMR..=)

cant wait for tmr to cum

chipmunks: Theodore - Alvin - Simon
chipettes: Eleanor - Jeanette - Brittany

yeah..loudhailer darlin is nack fm taiwan..apprentli, sum of de palces she went, i oso went before..hahaha..bt sad to say, she din gt mi T-Back..sob sob..

yeah yeah..ah lau is cumin back on 31st jan, 9pm (touch down??)..jus in tym for count down..aniway, no promises, bt if i cn, will go receive her..

gona count down wif ahma dey all on thur..haha..bt mus clean de hse first (mam sold le)..ani kind souls willing to hlp mi? 1 hr 4 bucks ok..haha..

gt famili gatherin on fri..goin to karaokay..hahaha..wat de..hopefuli mi cousins wil fight for demike, so i dun nid to sing..

2009-12-27T22:45:00.003+08:00

harlow..im back fm KL..

fun fun fun..eat eat eat..slp slp slp..fight fight fight..walk walk walk..quarrel quarrel quarrel..sweat sweat sweat..drink drink drink..bargain bargain bargain..bathe bathe bathe..shop shop shop..

im 'the princess'

kl plaza rakyat bus terminal
A & W root beer ice cream float

godiva chocolate ice blended

kl twin tower

hi 5

new york new york seafood platter for 2

orange singlet roomies..=)

am back fm mi 4 days 3 nights kl trip..lots of stuff hpnd..=)

thur, 24th: ric golden mile at 8, bus to kl plaza raykat, use map n ask ard, walk to petaling street, find chinatown inn n book rm to stay for 3 nights..1 person pay abt RM87 for a twin room + 1 extra mattress..put down bag, den go A&W to eat..den go walk walk at bukit bintang dere..ended up at KLCC, ate pizza hut for diner, watch movie: zombie land (all tks to mingfei), catch last train back to pasar seni..walk hm n slp..

fri, 25th: everybodi shake hand to wish each other merry xmas (or isit on thur)? ate wanton nudles for brunch, bought bbq pork..headed to titiwangsa (all tks to mingfei agn) to see lake..ran accross deir EXPRESSWAY (wth rite)..den cab down to one utama, abt RM45 - 50 for de trip..ate new york new york for diner..go jusco to buy snacks n drinks back to eat..search high n low for de damn bus stop cos no big teksi within view..saw bus 88 (to pasar seni) at traffic light, jus nice ppl alight, so we went to board, haha, abt RM2.50 per head!! dats so much cheaper den de damn teksi!! bus all de way till de end, saw ppl alightin at petaling, so we oso alight n go back 'hotel' to put down our things..chinatown still open, so we rested awhile, watch tv awhile, den head downstairs to walk chinatown..

sat, 26th: went to find mary brown to eat, bt dn hv, end up eat mac..n 2 grilled fishes..walk to pavilion, halfway rain, seek shelter..boys find shoes n bottoms..girls find earring n shirts..shop n shop de whole day..ate claypot rice (1 L, 1 M), ba kut teh (1 S), sting ray (1 L), white shell (1 M)..took drinks fm 'hotel' down..ate until full n satisfied..walk at chinatown until late at nite..go back hotel to play cards..

sun, 27th: pack bag, go A&W for breakfast (yucks), go back 'hotel' take bag..we cab to pavilion to gt shoes..den dey cab over to find us..den we walk to plaza rakyat to take bus ticket..bus back to spore..stop at yong peng, ate ramy burger (no pork, onli chicken, fish, beef)..alighted at golden mile, bus back hm..ate beef horfun..=)

2009-12-24T00:04:00.002+08:00

..de picture says it all..

tym n tym agn..promises were made, bt dey were broken..seriousli, i always say nt to bother, bt at de end of de dae, i stil care n concern abt ABCDEFG..it totali sucks..i duno wat to do..

im mad, sad, unhappy, angri, disappointed, pissed..no mur wordscn describe hw i felt..

we were suppose to mi at changi airport mrt at 730pm for diner at popeye..bt apprentli, dere was onli 3 of us..i hate ppl whu make promises n den break dem..i dun mind if 1 or 2 tym, cos i noe, nobodi in dis world is perfect, includin mi..bt to break de promises sooo mani donkey tyms, i tink its unforgiveable..

seriousli..am i treated as a fool?? msg ppl n nobodi reply?? y am i de one always organisin stuff n den ppl say cum, bt whn de dae arrives, dey either fly kite or gif excuses or is late?? ALWAYS..i dun lik it..do dey noe hw i feel??

must it reali be revenge whrby if dey plan stuff, i sabo dem, i fly deir kite, i gif excuses?? goodness, i shant tink abt it animur..

a FAMILI?? all i tink nw is bullshit, for dey jus take ppl for granted..i dun wan to be a gd person animur..god pls hlp dem to hlp deirselves, i reali wana wash mi hands off dese ppl..its tym for mi to go n do mi own things den to always care n concern dese ppl..end up, wats de point?? dey nv change do dey??

i might hv misunderstood, i might hv bin rash in cuttin off de conversation..bt it all boils down to one thing, IF YOU MAKE A PROMISE, DUN BREAK IT..IF NT, IN DE FIRST PLACE, DUN PROMISE..i brought a BAG to take mi books, bt end up i jus carry HERE n DERE..10 days ago, de person was excited n hapi n EVEN WANTED to MAKE a WELCOME 'card' to hold up at de airport..WAT DE!!!!!!

let bygones be bygones?? i guess, birds of de same feather flock together..in order to improve miself, i shall leave..no use gettin stuck rite..

isit mi dat hv change?? or isit u dat hv change?? isit mi dat hv nt improve?? or isit u dat hv nt improve?? haiz..i nid a getawa fm all dese rubbish n crap..im super duper hot nw..

2009-12-22T14:37:00.002+08:00

.....IM SO HAPPY.....WHOOTS.....

i cn gt to see ______ in 24 hrs + 6 hrs 20 mins..its lik so long..bt am doin project wif kuku..n tym seem to pass so fast..ltr stil goin for stjohn mittin, ncoc debrief..sure veri long, bt sure pass tym fast..=)

welcome back ok..haha..its earli, bt i dun tink i hv to blog abt it tmr..pls cum back safeli..

2009-12-21T21:09:00.002+08:00

Eay to make food..in less than 10 mins..

curry maggi wif egg

chocolate banana

nice n easy to make..fast n quick..bt both must eat whn hot..n de chocolatemus be thick n well mixed wif de bananas..=)

fri's qss stjohn officers christmas party was a blast..it was a success, jus dat too much food left..next yr will order less food, mur drinks..n we will jus wack de hotdog, crab meat, etc..no nid for fish, chicken, vege..hahahaha..

hvin kiwi was good..n so was de orange squash..lucki de guys cn work n hlp ard de hse..haha..reported to sir wilson hse at 715am on sat..n we stayed till 12 midnite before headin hm..goodness, i am awake for lik since 6am whn i go pompom..am so dead tired..

de games were all for children..bt dey had a fun tym shoutin n screamin deir heads off..dey even steal each other cash n sweets as well in order to win..haha..

kudos: to wilson for his hse..to crystal for offerin to use her car as our transport..to hong yao for bein de chauffer..for de officers whu came n participate..=)

2009-12-20T22:31:00.002+08:00

family day todae..nice thai food at AV..

mam's phad thai

dadi's crab vermicelli
didi's fried pineapple rice

princess's tom yang soup

didi's green curry

din go grad camp cos gt famili stuff..went to visit mi popo n ahma..haiz..

2009-12-19T00:40:00.002+08:00

overdue pictures!! hahahahahahahah!!

princess..hehe..de crown was fm airport

sesame street!! bt lack of 2 mur..hehehe..

gt previous elmo n cookie monster at $5..actuali cost $3.90 EACH..haha..bt de nyp cheers gt mistake, so dey throw in de cookie monster..haha..

jus nice saw mi fren at nyp cheers, n den ask him hlp mi collect..end up, i paid $11.70 for 6 new toys..hehehe..so nw de old elmo n cookie monster cn kip wif us le..de new ones i wun take out fm de plastic bag if nt dirty..hehehe..

cant wait for de other 2 mur!!

2009-12-19T00:26:00.002+08:00

jus tok for 6 mins 3o secs..=)

gt back ipp results..

go bought qss officers gift for party..

went to pack n wrap..

go orchard see suzy's play..

am tired bt i cant slp..

i miss _ _ _ _ _ _ so so so much..

2009-12-18T01:01:00.002+08:00

tdy is fri..2 days since ------ is gone..bt i heard ------ voice for lik 4 mins (afternoon) + 1 min 30 sec (at nite)..OMGZ lah..hehehe..=)

cant wait for next wed to cum leh..so missin ------..hw i wish tdy is tue le..

self declare holiday ltr on..hehehe..hope i cn wake up n pop by mi grandma hse..mus ric yew tee at 11am to collect stuff..den mit 130pm at ikea..hmmm..

am so gona make mi days packed wif stuff to do..

2009-12-16T20:50:00.002+08:00

im so tired..dere are so mani things to do..

bt all i cud do is THINK abt......fly off at 1040am..bt went in at 9 plus..hais.its ordy lik 12 hrs ++..n im startin to go crazy..

suddenli, i feel dat i wan onli 1 hr in a day, so dat 23rd will cum faster..i reali cant stop countin de days, hrs..

i jus dun feel lik doin anithin till 23rd comes..hais..

2009-12-16T20:28:00.003+08:00

finali i gt to post dis!!

cute little toy i gt..whn press stil gt sound..=)

can drink??
its actuali a creative packagin of a shirt..=)

matches..

charlene tan..

2009-12-15T23:52:00.002+08:00

1 week since i posted stuff..

finali finish CRM role play, PTFL theory test, HBO report, ETP report..bt den, things are still rollin in..god damn it...ARGH..

finali synergy is over..stjohn camp is over..2 mur days of sch..am self declarin off on fri..

goodness, stil gt grad camp fm fri - mon..am goin onli sun nite - mon, n still mus pay $15 (food), $25 (shirt)!!! duno y so much lah!! nw stil ponderin if shud go or nt..

wed is tep awards day..watever lah..stil mus wear formal..

sat gt queensway officer's christmas party cum gatherin at wilson hse..cant wait man..

am leavin for holiday on 24th le..finali gt to go overseas..

he will be leavin soon..all de best n take care..

2009-12-07T20:53:00.002+08:00

so here is mi new wallet..hahaha..

crm roleplay was OMGZ lah..haha..bt its over, yeah..nw concentrate on PTFL n ETP report..goodness, HBO report is quite ok, lucki i started abit..

tue hlp him cover for while..den meib go diner..settle food wif ahma..study PFTL..
wed go book kl bus..den go diner..den plan de activity for 19th qss officer party..study PTFL..
thur go hm pack camp bag..mus do finish etp report..study CCRM..
fri go ahma hse, den take her car go amk de jingshanprisch for stjohn camp..den ltr go sch for lessons..den finish go amk ntuc to buy food..den cum back ordy, straight go for synergy..gona overnight..study CCRM if gt chance..
sat is de synergy race..jiayous, will be seein him, hope everythin is fine..den finish go stjohn camp at ubin agn..
sun will go back mainland n head back to campsite..gt campfire..
mon is last day of camp..break camp le go look for pressy..

december is a packed month..ARGH..

2009-12-03T23:54:00.001+08:00

HATES EVERYTHIN!!

I WANA QUIT!!

TOTALI SUCKS!!

EVERYWHR GT PPL SURE GT POLITICS!! BIASNESS!! UNFAIRNESS!!

2009-12-01T18:31:00.002+08:00

sat gt st john as usual..den rushed hm so cn go bukit timah, bt so sad, de thing spoil..haha..den no use, wasted mi trip..bt hack lah, since go ordy, so make use of mi tym dere..hehe..gud to see u, dough i saw u at lunch ordy..haha..=)

sun stil mus wake up earli, go count money!! haha..bt lucki gt st john ahma, big babi, etc..haha..so fun lah..mdm huishang's little gal oso came..n she like mi..cos i gt honey stars n yakult..=) thanks for collectin mi racepack. bt y u talk so LONG!! make mi wait outside so LONG!! hahaha..slack at starbucks for a while..cos i duno wana go hm or mit mi uncle..bt i was reali tired, even drink coffee oso still tired..n i gt to eat cedele's carrot cake!! yeah yeah, its super duper nice tdy cos YOU paid..=)

thur nida go for zone mittin..dese dew months, everythin is abt st john..haha..sori to adc, sori to sch..i ordy comit miself to other stuff..bt yes, i will stil do synergy n c2c..

i nid a break..cos i wan to rest n slp..hahaha..

2009-12-01T18:09:00.004+08:00

OUTDATED PHOTOS..

charlene..genevieve..wan ling..eileen

wilson..wee eng
wan ling

crystal

charmaine

siti

2009-11-28T01:07:00.002+08:00

FRIDAE..

yakult..=)

ribena..bt ops, forgt to rotate..haha

tdy went to eat dim sum le..haha..finali, bt its super nice dough its at hawker centre..n its cheap..haha..=)

rainin lik mad sia..got caught, bt lucki nt so wet..bus down to mustafa to mit ahma, bf n liang wei..haha..omg, at dere was so so so dark, even dough it was in de afternoon..hahaha..bt i oso forgt to buy torch light..haha..

we walk n walk n walk n walk..jus to search for present n dumb stuff..n of cos, he got mi yakult n ribena..haha..yeahs..=)

we went to ulu pandan to slack n drink..den go hq to take stuff for tmr..haha..madness, dey tink crystal is driver ar..always ask her to use car n transport stuff..sians..lucki de cat nt dere..

2009-11-26T23:56:00.002+08:00

!!!!!!!!!!!!i have CRAVINGS for yakult and ribena sweets!!!!!!!!!!!

...I LUB U...I LUB U...I LUB U...I LUB U...I LUB U...I LUB U...

THURSDAE
i gt 1 tube of yakult agn..BT i bought miself..den suzy, rach, alis, maria, char drink..n its GONE..poof..haha..its lik u cant offer to ONE person onli, mus be de whole grp..if nt so wierd rite?? haha..

hopefuli next tym dey buy for mi to drink too..hehe..=)

tdy was a veri long dae, n im freakin tired..=(

thank goodness tmr is a PH, cn slp in, cn go out..YEAHS..

WEDNESDAE
i gt 1 tube of yakult n 2 boxes of ribena yesterdae..THANK U..muack..

i oso went to starbucks to gt deir free drink..BT, its hot, so gif him..i bought de peppermint mocha to try..OMG, yucks..dun lik it cos its nt to mi likin..haha..

rush down to queensway to gt mi new specs..BT he say nt nice..haha..wanted to gt 2, so cn wear his option too..bt we decided to jus do 1 first ba..dun waste money..

headed down to hq once gt mi specs..mus collect back de flag day tins..den went out wif siti n crystal to bugis..crap sia dey all..make mi eat desert until i wana shit..haha..

diner at hm at 1155 was maggie!! n was gossipin wif mi stjohn ahma n msgin mi boiboi..

2009-11-24T23:32:00.002+08:00

new york new york

fried mushroom
pasta

bras..hahahahaha

to put on face

leg gel

tdy after sch mit mi cousin..bt she was late..haha..so i went ard to look at stuff first..after dat, she came n den brought mi to buy bra..aiyo..n 3 summur leh..haha..den we went to new york new york to mummum..yeahs..=)

duno hw mi cousin noe dat sumthin is wrong..bt nothin is wrong wat..haha..so glad dat shes concern dough she nag at tyms..

yeah, mam gif money to make specs..n i cn collect tmr le..hahaha..=)

2009-11-24T23:05:00.002+08:00

SUNDAY

saw dis rainbow at de bus stop..on de bus stop seat

MONDAY

ingredients

fried egg

seaweed n sushi mix

yesterdae went to sch, bt was tired cos finish crm work at abt 12 - 1..den OMGZ , BOOMZ, SHINGZ cn..lecture fm 9 - 10, after dat lecturer say gt sumthin to tel SA0701..n guess wat, she jus wana tel us dat our TUTOR is on MC!! so lesson cancel..n sooooooo, i juc go sch for 1 hr!! wat de..haha..

gt mittin at 7pm at senja-cashew cc..so went to mit dragonfly for while..bin ages since i saw her..den go ntuc to buy stuff..make sushi for sumbodi to eat..da pao over to mittin, den gif taufu n mingfei to eat sum too..de rest at hm mi didi finish..mittin ended late, sians..

2009-11-22T23:49:00.003+08:00

i am HAPI..

mi uncles says dat even whn i hv no one, even whn everybodi left mi, even if nobodi love mi..

HE wil love mi..

hahahaha..thank u uncles..

bt im sori de bond we share, de love we share is something dat canot be replace or change by other ppl..i noe dat no matter wat i say or do, u wil nt leave mi..nt lik other ppl..

mi heart is lost in de vast sea, searchin back to whr it suppose to belong..so uncles, thank u for bein dere for mi..to ask mi out at random tyms..to take mi out for rides whn u are free..

YEAHS..

2009-11-22T11:51:00.002+08:00

SATURDAY

yeah, fm sir sam..of cos, de nogurt is he brought for all de officers to share, bt i lik it, so i took more..n its alot alot more..esp de crunchy ones..=)

sir went aust right before CF, leavin everythin to mi..on CF de actual dae..i demanded mi presents for him..n of cos, he did buy..bt he forgt to pass mi till yesterdae!! -.-

he is one of de nicest sir..dats y i lik workin wif him..i bet he is promoted, dats y he is lettin de seat go n pass over to mi..wat de!! sir, im gona make life diff for u..hahahahaha..

3rd course day, n OMG..de trainees n officers are lik BOOMZ..bt of cos, de rationale is, if mi chairman scolds mi, i wil scold de grp instructors, de grp instructors wil scold de trainees..either way, it is a continuous cycle..fm top down or bottom up..no use fakin ignorance or 'chao keng'..

yesterdays pt was shiok..de cadets all complain tough..haha..n so mani 'chao keng'..dose 'casualty' was enuf to form 2 GROUPS!! ediot rite..haha..bt nvm, let de 'chao keng'..in camp see hw long dey wana do dat whn gt mur senior officers ard..

gt all mi workin committee to do a 'test'..next week, wil be de plannin committees turn..no excuse even if u hv 2 pit or 3 pit..cos me myself am doin it too!!

i gues everythin is back to normal..first he wans it, den he dun wans it, nw he wans it BACK..i had enuf of playin games..dis wil be de last tym..i swear n promise..although we've tok n be normal, bt sumhw, its stil nt normal..i duno y..meib de wave has had wash away everythin, meib everythin has faded bt jus dis little spark is still dere, waitin to be litted up agn..

2009-11-20T22:08:00.002+08:00

GOODBYE..

tym to return back to its rightful owner

dis wil be goin away too

history will be, might be repeatin itself agn..bt dis tym, i am at no fault, i nv do anithin wrong..is nt lik i hv another guy..its nt as dough i smoke agn, dough i might if everythin is confirm n finalise..its nt lik i've hurt him deepli or let him down..

its all becos i cant promise, i cant compromise..dat i wil go church..WAT DE rite!! bt too bad, its de ugly truth, n it hurts..though ive ordy taken a step to go cell..bt to him, it might nt be enuf..

i duno stil wat i mus do..i duno y mus i be forced..i duno y i cant jus take mi own tym n do wat i lik..whu noes, meib whn we are nt together, i start to go church..will be gt back?? i tink dats too late..

we cant be frens animur..u wan ask to tok..ok, hi and bie..it aint easy..i took 9 months to start tokin to james..n its abt adc, stjohn..short n sweet..nothin much..

i guess, if everythin ends..dere goes mi weekli sat lunch dat mi officer envy mi havin..dere goes mi msia trip..i wun nid him to hlp mi in synergy..i wun leave anithin wif him..i wil return him everythin he gave..n i wil take back de letter n photo..

he cares if i drink..bt in wat position does he care..y does he wana care..whu pushed mi to de corner..

he used to say dat i make him choose between his 'late nite outing' frens or mi..bt i wonder dat if he reali understand dat i dun lik him stayin out late cos of safety reasons..BUT NOW, i dare to say dat he is de one whu will be choosin between his 'religion' or mi..i believe u are gona tok to ur fren abt dis n den make a decision..watever, its up to u..once we through, it is for real, n we are through..

it sucks badli..whn i was drunk jus nw, i reali feel lik i was dyin, i wish de car cud bang mi or sumthin jus fall down de sky n bomb de park..i cudnt rmbr anithin, de pain was taken away..de alcohol jus numb everythin..sumhw, i duno hw i ended up hm..whn i woke up,everythin was pain..mi head, mi eyes, mi heart, mi tummy..seriousli no mood to eat, go stjohn, do hm wk..

I HAVE JUST GIVEN UP EVERYTHIN DE MIN U GAVE MI UP, DE MIN U HAD TO TINK N CHOOSE, DE MIN U TELL MI U STIL NID TYM TO TINK..DERE IS NOTHIN MUR TO LIVE..DUN U NOE UR OWN HEART, WHR IT LIES..

2009-11-20T17:00:00.003+08:00

THURSDAY

he made mi walk in de dark, nearli..doesnt he noe dat im scared?? it hpnd at de foot of mount faber..nw he wants to repeat it..

FRIDAY

i hate bein FORCE to do things i dun lik

mi heart has bin broken since de phone call on wed..nothin gud wil hpnd i guess
i wil hv to walk alone down de long stretch of emptiness
tym to coup up miself away fm de rest of de ppl

u tink u playin game isit?? seriousli?? i duno wat has gotton into..u were de one whu initiated and ask for it..nw u are de one whu wans to end n stop it..why why why?? isit so fun?? isit cos u hv nv bin in one SOOO long?? i duno wats rite up ur mind..

i u knew it in de beginin, wat for stil start?? if u were to noe n forsee de future, wat for question?? y mus u force?? wil anithin gud cum out of it??

i bet u noe mi inside out for im easy to read lik a book..
1) i dun lik ppl to force mi to do things dat i dun lik
2) i hate ppl whu dun let mi hv de freedom to choose wat i wana do
3) i do wat i wan, as n whn i lik, hw i lik it
4) whn i lik, i do..dun lik, i dun do

y cant everythin be taken back?? y cant u eat back ur words?? y cant we jus take day by day n see wat hpnds till de tym cum?? isit so impt..dat u wil gif up mi for dat..i ordy follow u on sat nite..y mus i go on sun?? i hate wakin up earli in de mornin..whn den u wil understand?? i hv probs wakin up on weekdays jus to go to sch, wat mur on weekends..n if i cn wake up earli on weekends n nt weekdays, dats so contradictin..

if u hv to, i rather u kill it nw den ltr..i dun wan to go thru de same pain n torture agn..i hate it whn ppl are playin game..we were given a chance to lik each other..bt u rather choose religion, so be it..in ani case, in ur next life, pls choose de same religion gal so dat u wil nt break her heart..

it is becos i cant fulfil his wishes, his promises..i cant gif him an answer, i cant promise n compromise nw..dats y he wants to call quits..he is tinkin of callin quits..n after quittin, he wana be frens..FOR WAT? F***..he was de one whu started it, nw he might be de one ending it..so y mus i stil oblige n be frens?? jus becos i duno wat wil hpnd in de future, jus cos i dun lik wakin up earli on sun..he wans to gif up everythin we had n share..

n so, he ask: will u hate mi..hw i wish i wil tell him de real answer..hw i wish i cud lie to him..hw i wish i cn be strong..bt all he tinks is dat he dun wana breakdown while workin..den wat abt mi?? onli guys hv tears isit?? hv he ever tot abt mi?? hv he ever understand hw i felt abt all dese??

seriousli, i wonder if i lik de guy cos of himself..or becos he is rich?? or becos he has a belief n religion?? or becos of famili?? i wan to marry, lik de GUY..nt becos of ani other reasons..everybodi said he was perfect, dat he pamper mi..dat every sat he buys food down, on special request..bt am i dat lucki??

i wana slp..i wana gt drunk n stop tinkin abt all dese..if it is to be dis way, den let fate decide..after all, i had no choice, i hv ordy gave in, given in to his demands n request..wat mur cn i ask for, wat mur cn i choose..

its tym to retreat back to whr i belong..i wish to find mi grandfather n unlce n cousin in de other world..hopion dat dyin n leavin dis world wil solve everythin..

2009-11-19T13:09:00.002+08:00

WEDNESDAE

bored durin CCRM tutorial

diff colours
rach drew dis on de table

went for drink at TIMBRE..=)

mushroom soup

seafood platter for 2

grilled gala platter for 2

used up de vouchers

wore dress..cos goin out for birthdae diner..lucki i din wear shirt n short..cos go bar (and de service sucks)..haha..we jus drank n eat buffalo wings..den i told dem to go central for seafood..yummy..

luckili, de voucher expires on 18th nov 2009..which is jus nice yesterdae, if nt wasted..haha..

had a fun tym crappin n walkin n laughin..

i bet lots of CKP were droolin over we 4 gals..haha..

2009-11-18T00:23:00.002+08:00

its bin more den a week..alot of things to do..stress?? tired?? sick?? hapi??

LAST WEEK
wed went suzy hse, din mit him..wanted to go queensway to make specs, bt de shop close, so go vivo see dress..
thur gt synergy mittin..mi god, so cramp, so pack, so noisy, so long..hahaha..thankfuli i gt izwan to hlp mi out..
fri went for calculus..OMG, borin to de MAX cn..haha..den went to collect mi shirt fm eileen..nice..=)
sat gt nco course..triage was FUN, tekan ppl onli, bt dey deserved it..haha..so mani things hpnd dat dae (n i duno y sick after lunch)..headed to hq for brigade diner..saw uncle I too, yeahs..
sun fly uncle I's kite..cos too sick to go out..stay hm to rest..

MON
went hm for diner..gt crabs leh..=) ate 1 n half all by miself..haha..so yummys..n i watch finish de 'xie fu an, xie pi dan' show..so funi..hahaha..y dis actress, de shows she act always gt 2 guys lik her..n dey are rich?? real life gt nt?? haha..

TUE
go hm agn for diner, gt cod fish..=) i tink i mus go hm every dae den gt gud food to eat..haha..omg, i SWEETS alot tdy lah..n he oso bought 1 tube of sweet for mi..nearli fall aslp durin lesson, bt was awake after seein him? haha..n rach say she gona pinch mi if i slp..bt i cant hlp it, i mean, whu dun wana slp durin her lecture? haha..kiddin..

durin ETP, walau, suzy n alis kip playin mi iphone..n suzy cn stil tel alis, TIMES UP..u use 30 mins liao..haha..so funi cn..onli i pay attention? see i so guai..=)

de more i see her, de more i wan to slap her face..de more i regret..bt wat cn i do?? no choice..wats done is done, cant undone..PLS stop gifin mi de pathetic n inocent look..i HATE it..show dat to other ppl whu u cn scam..=)

2009-11-10T17:39:00.002+08:00

asked for tutu kueh, n dis wat i got..haha..10 of dem..am i a pig?? he's so sweeeet..reali?? seriousli?? truefuli?? haha..tks alot to him, i dun hv to queue n stil gt to eat..

tks for always askin mi if i wan nt..if u gt de heart, u wil buy it..if u noe i wana eat, u wil buy it..wahahaha..=)

coconut tutu kueh

sharin de black black thing

2009-11-09T20:24:00.002+08:00

MONDAE

din feel lik goin to sch, bt no choice, sumbodi say i mus go sch n study -.- haha..aniway, i mus make it a pt to go sch on mon..cos ms joanne is sooooo ______...always makin mi laugh lor..exercise mi lungs, mi vocal cords, etc..hahaha..

SUNDAE

tdy gt charity fair..seriousli, i wana cri lah..mi FnB is lik doin NOTHIN..n i mus do for dem, other officers mus do for dem..y mus we be de one to KIO de SAI!! argh!! thankfuli, gt senior officers to hlp mi..i mus be strong, i am strong..

as usual, watever dey say is correct, watever we say is wrong lah hor..haiz..duno wat to do..am caught in de middle..

SATURDAE

nco course was ok..first dae, alot of scoldin n shoutin..on fri, one of mi officer jus drop de bomb on mi..askin mi to gif 2 lectures..OMGZ!! overall, it was ok, sum even ask hw i cud turn a borin lecture into sumthin interestin n fun..REALI?? haha..surprisin to mi, dat i cud do it..=)

after course go see astro boy..haha..

reali veri tired..

2009-11-06T05:52:00.001+08:00

FUCK..

FINALI FINISH MI IPP REPORT..

HAD TO REDO DE DAMN WHOLE THING LAH..SIANZ..

HOW TO SLEEP NOW?? MUS WAKE UP AT 0715..NO DIFFERENCE..

SO PISSED CAN..BETA DUN DISTURB MI..

2009-11-06T02:06:00.001+08:00

FUCK..

mi report is lost..all gone..stupid com..nw i gtta REDO!! SUCKS man..feel like killing miself..wana rant all de bad words out man..wana cri, bt it wun hlp..

F*** F*** F***!!!!!

2009-11-03T00:12:00.002+08:00

yesterdae mornin uncle msg mi..i was quite surprise..cos tot he saw mi..bt he jus wana noe hw i am n stuff..n we chatted alot..he kept mi company along de way to sch..

its reali bin AGES since i last tok to uncle..dat day he call n call n call..bt i was slpin..

so FINALI i gt de chance to see him agn, n go out, go ridin..he counted, n its bin 8 MONTHS!! omg, dat long, i din go ridin..i din go vivo n chill n eat thai express..i din go '99 turns'..i din go to 'sumwhr'..

he n his gf broke le..haiz..uncle, its ok, slowli find..ah gal wil support u de..or i cn hlp u find..hahaha..

oh oh, n de bike he change agn!! haha..he rode de red bike, 600cc for abt 7 months..den nw, change to white bike, 1000 cc..FASTER LEH!! wheeee..

he say he goin US for 2 yrs..say he cn sponsor mi tickets if im goin to visit him..bt expenses n stuff i mus cover..haha..whu noes, 2 yrs ltr, uncle cum back wif ang moh gf..hehe..

n surprisin, he still goes to church evey sun..stil cn say he veri guai..haha..

uncle, i miss u..n stop askin if i miss u..dumb..n we saw king kong..haha..=)

2009-11-02T23:58:00.002+08:00

SATURDAE

went for NCO Course Orientation..was a half day program..soon, de next few weeks, its de actual NCO Course le..

i promise, dat fm oct, nov, dec..mi piority is for stjohn..so de rest, pls dun disturb mi..im nt as free as before..book mi in adv..

after dat had debrief, mittin, gossip session..den mit him n go cell..mi god, i slept in de bus..n we ended up at clementi..bt den he asked mi to go, so i went..

de pt is, no matter hw tired a person is..dere are sacrifises n promises dat one made, n has to be kept..yes i am tired, further mur i stil gt stjohn on sun, in de mornin..bt i do make de effort to go wif u..cn u do de same??

SUNDAE

went for stjohn agn, bt dis tym is zone presentation..went to gt mi service medal..haha..eat agn..suppose to mit, bt den, haiz..its over..so had mittin, diner, went hm..

MONDAE

tdy sch start le..tdy i lose 2 $10 taka vouchers..cos i jus show suzy, den she say 'gif mi leh'..i cn say NO meh?? so i say u choose lor, either taka or sports link..so she took taka..den she tell alis she gt de voucher..lidat ordy, hw cn i dun ask alis to take oso..so alis oso took de taka voucher..

mit bong for lunch..i drink milo n den he didijia..waited for him to cum down..den he say he wan go taka buy things, cn use de voucher..told him i left $10..n den he sianz..haha..so i reali tot he reali wan de $30 to buy stuff..end up whn i ask wat u wan to buy..he jus smile at mi n say duno..

nvm lah, i dun use..i let u use de last $10 taka voucher ok..sayang lah..next tym gt ani vouchers i jus kip for u lor..

after sch went to find white sports bra..if nt kena shoot n scolded agn..duno wats dis brand..so jus try since its de onli white wif out paddin..PURELIME sports bra, $59.90 SIA!! bt bt bt bt bt bt bt bt, gt discount of $35.65..so i onli nida pay $25.25!! bt bt bt bt bt bt bt bt bt, i gt de sports link voucher..so i onli nida pay $5.25!! haha..cool or wat!! cn go sports link n look for stuff agn..=)

2009-11-01T22:43:00.001+08:00

he passed mi dis..

mam pass mi dis..
gt de medal tdy..n mi G4 is done..=)

am reali shack..update mur tmr..goin hm to slp after sch tmr..tireds..mi panda eyes is showin..

2009-11-01T22:23:00.003+08:00

SATURDAE

i love daddy n mummy

ROMPER: my name is joelle
BIB: joelle, new arrival

T-SHIRT: joelle, lil princess

TSHIRT: joelle's daddy, baotian

TSHIRT: joelle's mummy, lina

JOELLE: dis is all mine

JOELLE: mi n mummy n daddy..=)

congrats to sir bao tian n mdm lina on deir arrival of deir baby girl - joelle..aniway, she's 1 month old plus le..haha..

rara queensway officers to pool money n buy gift for her..10 officers, $13 per pax..=)

am so in love wif de romper..i wan too!! anibodi gt ani idea whr cn make ADULT romper?? wahahahaha..

2009-11-01T00:07:00.004+08:00

FRIDAE

wrapped tightli n put inside fridge

chocolate gift
marker set gift

card n $80 sportlink gift

yeahs..IPP is over..de teachers wanted to brin mi out for lunch..bt last min changes, cant go..aniway, i gt chocolates, card, vouchers, maker ink..fm de pe dept n general office ppl..

2009-10-30T13:13:00.004+08:00

today very free, nothing to do..maybe cause last day?? hv bin surfin de net, chattin wif de GO ppl, walkin ard, usin de toilet to pee n shit..haha..de students so shiok, tdy dey clean de class rm, 1030 dismiss le..bt nt de staff!! haha..dey had to go mittin till lik 1330??

below are sum pics of de gifts i made YESTERDAE (haha, rush thru)..+ wif mam's hlp for de jelly..i oso cn make, bt nt as gud..=( dough it might be nothin much, bt den, i oso duno wat to do..hopefuli dey lik de biscuit n jelly..i oso gt write a small note n a clip for dem..best part, i gt 1 general office aunti's name WRONG!! haha..n all dese 10 weeks, i tot i was RIGHT!! hahahaha..lucki she dun mind..=)

aluminium foil, niceli + neatli teared

individual crushed n den open agn
1sst pressy: foil, clip, note, yelow paper ribon, 2 biscuits..nice biscuits (to mi)

after wrappin, look sumthin lik dis

general office ppl

pe teachers

din take other teachers..lik dose whu made mi day n hlp mi out, beside de pe teachers..

empty boxes to store jelly

wed's batch of jelly..plain flavour

mam say dat thur's batch of jelly gt durian flavour..so all de boxes i pack to sch, each has 2 plain 1 durian..hehe..de rest of de durian flavoured at hm waitin for mi to eat..=)

mam make dolphin jelly for mi too..=)

dis de tray mould to make de jelly..=)

ok, at hm kitchen, dinin table..packed n ready to go sch

top view..i feel hungri nw

tks to mam for hlpin mi wif de jelly..dun nid to eat, ordy smell gud..hvnt take pics of de presents i gt..meib ltr before st john mittin den i open..

gt 1 teacher on leave..gt 1 teacher went hm (half day)..gt 1 teacher hv to go hospital..din even take photo wif dem..left deir present on deir desk n in de fridge..de 3 boxes of jelly, i wrap wif paper n tape..den write deir name..(kiasu, scared other teachers eat, den dey dun hv..hehe)..

will upload de rest of de pics whn i take dem..=) IM BORED..

2009-10-30T08:55:00.002+08:00

hopin u wil come

wishin dat i cud reali see u

hopin to see u..was agn searchin for u..i noe i said i wun search n wait ordy..bt i jus cant..de litle spark jus wana check if u are ard, if u wil cum..alas, de truth hv bin revealed..even on mi last day to work, u nv cum..u wun cum, u came onli once..

whu am i to hope n wish to see u dere?? nobodi = nobodi, sumbodi = sumbodi..i feel sucky, i feel lik crap..i duno wat to do..as much as i dun wa to tink of it, i stil tink of it..as much as i dun wan to search for u, i stil search for u..god damn it man..

haiz..i said nt to send mi animur..even if u cum de next tym..i duno if i shud feel hapi?? blissful?? excited?? shocked?? to mi, i tink de feelin is gone..de expectation has bin dashed..de waitin was useless..

hopefuli things gt beta..if nt i duno wat to do oso..im reali tired..i reali wishED n hopED n prayED dat u wil be dere..i shal jus let it go, nv to cum back, pls dun haunt mi..

ps: everybodi is tired, nt onli u..y cant u wake up earli BT i mus wait n go back late?

2009-10-30T08:24:00.002+08:00

THURSDAE

had to transfer money over to sumbodi cos i order sum clothes online..=) veri nice n pretty..bt too bad nt for mi..haha..hopefuli im gettin miself 1 too..=) so ask de general office ppl for directions to rivervale?? riverdale?? mall..haha..

quite near lor..n i jus noe hw to go dere YESTERDAE.. -.-!! cumin to end of IPP, den i noe gt short cut, gt shoppin centre, faster way to cum sch..haiz..nvm..

aniway, gt lots of tym, so walk ard..n i saw dis BOWL..cute lah..was decidin whether to buy blue or pink..bt i gal rite, so gt PINK lor..no choice..haha..scared i buy blue den mi didi go USE!! hahaha..

mi new pink bowl..("v")

WEDNESDAE

gud god..omg..check out wat i did on wed!! for lik 1hr 30 mins - 2 hrs!! i nv even do dis at hm!! ok, after trainings i jus wash n rinse MI own dirty clothes, den leave it to dry, before mam reali take dem to wash clean n proper..bt den, mi hse gt chair for mi to sit n wash mi clothes leh..here!! i mus squat..tirin n pain sia..tsk tsk..becum 'ah sam' leh!!

de best part..i tot all de colour sash were in de rm..so i took all out n wash..den go dry..whn i go back staff rm n tell de pe teachers dat i wash finish..dey shock n dey laugh..en, dey took out MUR colour sash fm deir tables..WALAU, dey hide at deir table for wat? haha..

so i brin down to wash agn..2 rounds..haha..den go hang agn..ask de CCPE to gt mi hp n take pics of mi..so go general office to collect back mi hp..DEN!! de ppl dere ask y i wash? y i dun gif aunty wash? y i dun put washin machine?

YES!! de sch gt WASHIN MACHINE..bt duno whr, teachers even nv say gt!! OMG cn..haha..

take 1

take 2
take 3

2009-10-28T09:07:00.002+08:00

mam says dat dese chocolates took plane back to spore..fm US?? europe?? idk..

de box..freakin nice..i wana kip it..

smal little chocolates inside
i wonder which part of mi tummy will de chocolate stay at?? its so small, bite size, 1 mouth GONE..haha..so far, nobodi has ate it yet..too precious i guess..

well, i ordy hinted, bt no results or surprises were felt..i shud jus forgt it..aniway, 2 mur daes left..whu cares wat i do..whu cares if i go alone or wif company..

sumbodi promiseD nobodi dat if nobodi went to cell grp last sat wif sumbodi..sumbodi wil jailbreak de iphone for nobodi..as usual, it was a promise kept BROKEN..dis aint de first tym sumbodi said to nobodi abt hlpin to jailbreak de iphone..nobodi had ordy gave up wantin to jailbreak..i bet, nobodi's hp is de longest phone so far, to hv nt jailbreak after purchasin it..sigh..

am tired fm all de mittings..i nid a break..bt, i cant..i nid a rest, bt i cant..i wana play, bt i cant..sch's startin on mon..no holiday for mi..even sat n sun are bein occupied wif stjohn stuff..i cant even mit mi 2 gossip gals..adc events are ________..stjohn events are ______..nida place importance on other stuff, lik mi slp, rest, play, etc..

2009-10-26T09:02:00.002+08:00

SUNDAE..

BEEF soup

CHICKEN satay
MUTTON herbal soup

suppose to eat meatballs at ikea..bt change plan cos mf dun wan eat..so since we eat before, we decided to gif it a miss..went AV to drink soup, herbal soup..haha..so heaty..BEEF, CHICKEN, MUTTON..missED out mi beloved fren PORKy..hahah..

yum yum..love de satay..eat until satisfied..heade to queensway shoppin centre to await de other 2..we look ard for water baby agn..hero went to check out backpack..n we walk ard to look at clothes n tatoos.. FAKE ONE LAH!! haha..

xiao long bao (PORK)

FROG leg wif chilli

kai lan

FROG leg wif spring onion

plain porridge

diner was at chinatown..din go geylang cos so far, n hero n mi n him nids to go back earli..to studi, to change bedsheet, to wash clothes..haha..we went chinatown to buy KOI n share (YEAHS)..den walk ard, den go eat..he bought xiao long bao down..n i love it..ate 5, cos he bought 20 pcs..

dere, i gt to eat PORK le..wahaha..n we ate frog leg..hero n mf din noe hw to eat at first, bt dey tried n SUCCEED..bt ONE ding dong, duno wat he scared, onl wan eat de leg, de good part..leave de body for us!! dare nt try, scared, scary cat, HUM!!

had a fun day crappin n goin out..too bad for dose whu canot join..taufu, i bet ur diner is nice too, bt confirm expensive den us bt x100!! haha..

2009-10-26T08:52:00.002+08:00

SATURDAE

fish soup (fresh n fried mix)

mit in de mornin to hv breakfast, bt de princess (actual title) was late, so de king (self proclaim) gtta wait..haha..wat to do, im de princess wat..haha..

aniway, headed to chinatown to gt stuff, intro de king a nice biscuit..bt de king so tut-tut, nv eat before..OMGzzzzz..wanted to eat dim sum de..bt de king tinks dat we wun hv enuf tym to shop ltr at beach road..so we jus forget abt de dim sum..

went hungri till abt 11++..went army market to shop ard n check out prices for de water baby..nt veri nice dough..bought some plastic containers to use as present box for gifts..den we head to mummum..

forget to take pic of de claypot rice..dis coffeeshop is hidden at one corner..nt veri ideal, bt it sells gud claypot chicken rice n fish soup..i jus had it for diner last wed, n sat im dere agn..its yummy..we slack ard for an hr, den i went for mittin n de king left..

god, so much thigns to settle for st john..de arrow has bin shot, de bomb has bin farted..i've resign mi fate, i've noe mi postion (actuali before de mittin)..i cant escape mi fate..hahaha..CI, big deal?? heavy responsibility?? i hope wat i talkED on sat to de junior officers make SENSE!! hahahaha..

gona gif mi full force, hv to stop pon-ing mittin liao, used to be MARKED, so i hv to change n do wats impt..went to see de wat?? N live?? duno wats de name lah..prediction abt de coming of 'end of de world'....whr satan VS god....whewhewhe..

2009-10-23T12:09:00.002+08:00

WAT A DAE

de sun came out fm de wrong side tdy..SUMBODI woke up SO EARLI jus to go work..OMG..i mean, work doesnt start SO EARLI, so de wakin up tym is lik 10 or 1030?? goodness, jus cos everybodi nids sumbodi's hlp..sumbodi ask nobodi to wake sumbodi up at 7 plus!!

gosh gosh gosh..dis is SO uncommon..

long long tym ago..sumbodi told nobdi dat sumbodi will acc nobodi to sch on certain days..days passed, weeks passed, months passed..bt sumbodi did nt acc nobodi to sch..onli on ONE account, whn nobodi had doc appt in de mornin, so means go sch ltr..all de while, sumbodi slept n woke up jus in tym to go work..

de morale of de story is: if ure nobodi, CONFIRM u wil be nobodi..cos sumbodi is sumbodi whu wil hlp everybodi XCEPT nobodi..=(

anibodi out dere, wana hlp mi publish book?? hahahahahaha..i cn write STORIES..fm all over de palce i see, hear, feel, smell, taste..=)

2009-10-23T11:44:00.002+08:00

CHECK OUT DIS PIC!!

blur cos bus move..

abit clearer, bus stil movin..

see dis CHA BOR!! KNN..she fm ANIHC..hw i noe..cos i was sittin opp her, n she was tokin damn loudli on her hp..lik nobodi business, lik she wan de whole bus to hear wat she sayin..dis bus is 136..i board fm kovan mrt station..she came up after mi by a few bus stops..n all de way, sit lidat..even gt ppl, she oso nv MOVE!! den she alight 1 stop before mi!!

OEI!! u pay money for TWO seats meh?? stil go dirty de pole wif her SHOE!! ppl standin nida hold de pole leh..BITCH..

she was tokin abt hw busy de shop is..bt de boss say hw cum de sales nt gd, bt dey work so slow..den she told her fren is cos de boss nv hire enuf workers lor..dats y busy..blah blah blah..i din bother to hear..sum i oso dun understand wat she say..BUT wat caught mi EAR was dis!!

'wo jue de zhong guo bi qiao hao'!! means 'i tink china beta'!! FARK!! F***!! KNN!!

1st: u anihw sit on OUR PUBLIC BUS!! if u wana sit lidat, PLS HIRE de WHOLE BUS!!
2nd: if u TINK ur COUNTRY so GUD..PLS go BACK!!

im nt insultin de country..bt dis foreign ppl jus piss ppl off..u are in a foreign country..de least u shud do is shame ur country..ive met other china ppl whu are mur civilised and beta n nicer..u ppl jus brin shame to ur country..so get lost..

2009-10-23T08:22:00.003+08:00

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ....OMG.....mi dad nv fails to make mi laugh or smile..AT TYMS THOUGH..haha..such crappy photos, bt quite true cos dis de TRUTH!!!!! wonder whu forwarded to mi dad all dese emails....bet dey mus be DAMN FREE in de office..hahahahahaha..

nt to offend ani gender..bt de truth hurts..wahahaha..jus for laughs..check out de pics n wat i tot whn i first saw it..

our BRAINS..check out whr dey ARE!!

gal: black broken heart..guy: big white pure bouncy boobs..
de 10 HOT SPOTS to make sumbodi HIGH..hw u wana do it, use ur imagination..

GUYS..dis is OUR brain, so learn n master it..for den u wil UNDERSTAND us!!

whu wud hv tot of dis..so near, yet so far..ideali perfect for CHEE KO PEIs!!

see..human nature is VAIN..nt onli gals, guys too..

JOKE OF DE DAE!!

guy: shame u dun hv one lik dis!! (referin to his dick)
gal: well, mi mam said in a few yrs tym, i cn hv as mani of dose (referin to dickS) as i want becos i hv dis!! (referin to vagina)..

haha..so dun tink cos u hv, we scared ok..dis gal is teachin us dat since we hv 'de hole', we cn hv wat we wan..so u guys beta treat us propeli, if nt scram..we dun nid jus 'urs'!! wahahahaha..

will u marry mi?? haha

for beta or for worse..support each other in yrs to cum..

bet she drank lots of papaya milk shake!!

goodness..GALS, NOW u NOE dat is NO SUCH THING as 'THE PERFECT MAN'..continue waitin n u wil rot..we hv to make do of INPERFECT MAN..

gals RULE!! haha..IF ONLY..

damn funi lah..make fun of de gender..bt its so true at tyms..laugh ur head off ppl..its jus jokes to lighten up de mood..aniway, TGIF..so laugh away n welcome de weekend..CHEERS..

2009-10-22T11:35:00.003+08:00

STRESS UP?? STRESS OUT?? STRESS DOWN?? STRESS IN??

mi head looks lik dis NOW!!

veri true..i nid lotsa hlp
im a tired pigLET

gosh, ive bin yawnin all dae long

fil lik flyin away

check out mi eyes..dey'll close ani tym startin NOW

omg...im totali shacked...

whn i gt things to do..i got SO MANY things to do..wth..

whn i gt nothin to do..i REALI gt NOTHIN to do..wth..

stupid stupid stupid..everydae since tue..ive bin wastin 2.5 hrs of mi dae in dis rm..waitin for ppl to cum to do deir test on de machines!! F***..i mean, wat are de changes of dem cumin since exams are over?? haha..n i gt to wait for 2.5 hrs for lik ONE person or THREE ppl??

GOSH..mentali drainin, n temptin mi to slp..cos de room soooo cozy, aircon, soft music..BEST, used to go dere n rest, slp, use machine durin mi lunch hrs n break tym..COS I GT DE KEY!! =)

aniway, dis whole week + next week is hell for mi..jus before sch start, i wan a proper break cn?? bt mi wishes are nt answered..haha..meib i ask for too many things ordy?? meib i din pray hard enuf?? meib i was noti?? meib i had to perserve n gt things done, so mi break wil cum next tym for a longer period?? haha..

mon had a gd rest at hm..bt was cos of mi leg..
tue went hm n HAD to do SCH work for de _______ cos tmr she nids for presentation!! ok lah, she likes to tel mi stuff last min, n wan mi to do ASAP + immediateli..always askin mi to stop wat im doin jus to do her work..haha..bt shes nice overall..
wed was busy since 8am..of cos gt blog, facebook, email..bt hw MUCH cn i do dat?? settle de games stuff..went to HQ for mittin..7pm - 1030pm?? omg..knock out whn ric hm, stil mus wake up at 515 de next dae..sians..
thur hv basketball game..den mus type in alot of admin stuff for old hag..den mus settle yesterdae mittin stuff..
fri hv netball game..
sat die die mus go HQ buy amulet n stuff..cos next week is NCO Course (i stil tot nov den start)..
sun mingfei jio to go back sims dere, buy water baby (meib), eat frog leg, drink turtle soup?? stil tinkin, cos i wana go orchard hotel..dere gt de overseas study at aust..might go, might nt go so far to study..bt gt xtra info beta rite?? =)

mon gt zone presentation mittin at HQ at 7pm
tue hopefuli cn mit de gals
wed gt c2c trial run at NYP at 7pm
thur gt c2c mittin at NYP at 7pm
fri gt charity fair mittin at HQ at 7pm (cant even learn de high e stuff..mus wait till sch start..hai)
sat gt NCO Course at 730am
sun gt zone presentation at 10am
* all dese are jus external stuff..its oso last wk of mi IPP before go back to sch..nt sure if gt alot of things to do in sch..bt i foresee its a YES..*
1) healthy lifestyle survey mus collate results..year 1 - year 3..total 25 classes..1 class abt 35-40 students..do de math urself to see hw much i hv to key!!
2) underweight girls to do survey..below 70%..lucki onli FOUR..haha..
3) Wellness Stuff to collate de attendance..
*dats all i cn tink nw to do in sch next wk..*

nt forgetin synergy adventure race (pure endurance)..gtta to mi check point stuff
nt forgetin climb run..mus hlp wif de booth..stil tinkin to participate or hlp out
nt forgetin c2c..push harder, to make it a success
nt forgetin jerangkang..almost done wif full report cum edition..waitin for boss to cum back to gt info
nt forgetin zone presentation..will i gt promoted (hope nt...cos means mur burden n stuff to do)
nt forgetin charity fair..whr we hlp others yearli..nida chase ppl for things to gt done
nt forgetin NCO Course..nt sure wat postition i gt yet

god hlp mi to hlp miself to be able to do all de work!!

2009-10-20T11:15:00.002+08:00

dis pic tells alot..i dun usuali say it..bt den, i found dis pic cute..well, its so random n sudden..cos i receive lots of emails fm mi dad everydae abt stuff, rubbish..hwever, dis particular email caught mi attention n left mi smilin for quite a while..i hvnt bin smilin since whn??

1) signboard outside a prostitue's hse says: married MEN are nt allowed..COS, we serve de NEEDY, nt de GREEDY..=)

2) new AIDS awareness slogan: instead of doin de same position wif diff women and gettin aids..y dun stick to de same woman n do different positions!! =)

3) y is sex lik shavin?? WELL, cos no matter hw well u do it tdy, tmr u'll hv to do it agn..=(

4) y are condoms transparent?? so dat de sperms can at least njoy de scenary inside, even if deir entry is restricted!! =)

5) wat wil hpnd if de earth rotates 30 tyms FASTER?? men wil gt deir salary everydae..n women wil BLEED to death!! =(

6) y do 90% gals hv deir left boob bigger den de right boob?? COS, 90% of de BOYS are RIGHT HANDED..=)

7) wats de difference between a stage curtain n underwear?? of cos u gt to PULL DOWN both..BT, whn u pull down de stage curtain, de show is OVER..BT, whn u pull down de underwear, de show is STARTIN!! =)

8) wats de similarity bewteen a wife n a chewin gum?? both are sweet in de beginin, BT becums tasteless n shapeless ltr..=(

9) advantages of hvin affair wif married women?? dey gif lik HELL..dey do nt YELL..dey do nt TELL..dey do nt SWELL..dere is no weddin BELL!!

10) if onli Adam n Eve were chinese, we would still be in paradise..cos dey wud hv ate de SNAKE instead of de apple..haha..=)

...hope u had a great laugh too..it brightens up de day..some are SOOOO TRUEEEE...

2009-10-20T08:45:00.003+08:00

OUCH..dis wat i've found..goodness..bt who am i to complain?? im born lidat..n dere are ppl worse off den mi..i wan to correct de error..bt i hate rehab..everytym i book an appt, i go for de first consultation..hear wat de doc says, go for xray..see result..n den hear de damn old same story over n over agn..as de yrs go by, de story dun change, bt de injuries n probs down mi leg gts worst..

no hard core sport..do mur swimmin BT onli freestyle..do until ur limit, den stop..de mur u push urself, de worse it wil gt..QUIT floorball, u cant hv huge/high impact activities to ur ankle n knees..WAT, u quit floorball den join adventure club..STILL run n climb n blah blah blah..de list goes on n on..i wan to do wat i lik..i wan to do wat others cn do..

i noe de doc meant well..bt i cant stop..in a cca, if u cant do it..u're lik a loser, outcast..shame on u man..y others cn do it bt nt u?? y others wif injuries cn do it bt nt u?? sumhw, i wonder if all OUR injuries n probs are de same..sumhw, i wonder if seniors/officers/trainers take into account SERIOUSLI, de injuries n probs of deir members..N nt ALWAYS JUS PUSH DEM TO DEIR LIMITS!! hwever, i noe deir 'ku zhong'..cos sum ppl jus lik to fake pain, fake injury..F***..i hope dey reali gt injured one day n gt REAL PAIN..

whu WANTS to change legs wif mi?? i stil wana trek n see de world..i stil wana go for trips ard de world backpackin..i stil hv lots of things i wana do n nid mi legs to carry mi..bt y?? y am i born wif all dis probs?? i hate it..bt nobodi is perfect..ive yet to cum accross anbodi whu has so much leg injuries lik mi..either dey hv dis..or dey hv dat..dey dun gt all dat i hv..lifes nt fair..

flat feet bilaterali (wear insoles wif shoes)..weak ligaments at de ankle (ligamentous laxity, or "looseness of the ligaments," softening of the ligaments holding the bones together)..tight muscles at de calf (to compensate for de weak ligaments)..rotatedli in wards hip..blah blah blah..watever!! as long as i stil cn tahan n do things which i lik..i wil try to do, to de best of mi abilities..love PAINKILLERS..=)

mi left groin hurts..i tink de muscle gt pulled?? i cant open mi legs TOO wide..slight movement i feel pain..bt its nt as bad as de right knee..hwever, whn i slp, i cant open to wide to squeeze mi bolster..=(

dis de knee..oh wells..de lateral ligament is makin mi pain..i cant go up or down stairs properli..it hurts lik shit everytym i move up or down..even whn im takin off mi SHORTS n wearin dem!! sucks big tym..i hv to lik bend sooooo low jus to wear mi undies n shorts..if nt, whn im on de bed, i take dem off fm dere..so much easier..

iliotibial band syndrome (IT band friction syndrome) - common cos of knee pain along de outside knee n lower thigh. dis IT band is a strong thick band of fibrous tissue dat runs along de outside of de leg. starts at de hip all de way to outer thigh n attaches on de outside edge of de shin bone (tibia) jus below de knee joint. dis IT band works wif de quadriceps to provide stability to de outside of de knee joint durin movement..

IT band syndrome is typicali caused by inflamation of de IT band. it is a common injury in runners or other athletes dat run for trainin or durin deir sports. IT band acts primarily as a stabilizer durin runnin n may becum irritated fm overuse. de pain is typicali felt on de outside
aspect of de knee or lower thigh. often mur intense whn descendin stairs or gettin up fm a seated position..

IT band syndrome is common in runners who perform unbalanced, repetitive exercise such as runnin onli on one side of a crowned road, or onli runnin one way around a track. Most roads slope off to the sides n runnin along de edge causes to de outside foot to be lower den de inside foot. dis in turn causes de pelvis to tilt to one side n stresses de IT band..

chondromalacia patellae (CMP) results fm damage to de cartilage which covers de posterior aspect of de patella (knee cap). dis is known as articular cartilage n acts to allow smooth movement n shock absorbtion between de patella n de groove thru which it runs. in overuse cases, de cause of de damage is usuali repetitive rubbin of part of de cartilage against de underlying bone..

individuals wif CMP, de knee cap rubs against de part of de joint behind it, resultin in inflammation, degeneration n pain. de can be for a number of reasons, bt is usuali due to de position of de patella itself. de most common feature of CMP is patella mal-trackin. de patella most commonli runs too lateralli (to the outside) in de groove. dis prob is most regularli caused by muscle imbalances, whr de lateral quadriceps muscles n other tissues such as de retinaculum are too tight n de vastus medialis oblique muscle is weak..

CMP is common in young athletes who are often otherwise injury free. its incidence is also highest in females due to their on average higher 'Q angle'..

tdy mornin, i had to leave hse earlier..as mi leg is stil gifin prob..i cant walk as fast as before, i cant run to catch de bus..duno y, mi left ankle starts to hurt..i gues its becos of de cats..haha..dey frighten mi earli in de mornin..lucki i din scream..
all de pain runnin thru mi legs..its nt as painful as de hurt n loneliness i feel goin thru mi body, mind, soul, blood, heart..nothin is worse as compared to de coldness..tym seem to stop..as de blood rushes thru mi, im wonderin y am i still livin..i wish for de blood to turn blue..

im letargic..bt im energetic..i wan to stay hm n rest, n nt move ard..i wan to hide n shun away fm de crowd n noises..bt i wana kip movin to forgt everythin..i wana do mani mani things to kip mi busy n nt tinkin abt stuff i dun lik..

i goin off..bie..dun bother lookin for mi..u cant gt mi..i wil reach for u, whn i hv to, whn im in nid..

2009-10-19T09:03:00.002+08:00

i wana run away..im gona disappear..so dun look for mi..if needed, i wil look for u..yes ppl, i mean it..im goin to take mc..im goif to go away fm all dis crap n nonsense n rubbish..im gettin lost for real..

i jus wish de floor wud open up n swallow mi in..i wish to stop tym whn im hapi..i wish to leave everythin behind..i wish to go away..i wish to fly up up up so high..i wish i wil nv return back to all de sufferin..

im all alone..in de vast open sea..nobodi to call for hlp..nobodi to save u..nobodi by ur side..nobodi wif u..nobodi cares abt u..everybodi jus left, includin de one closest to u, includin de ppl u love, u used to love..

in dis world, nothin is perfect, yet u cant hv everythin n anithin ur way..unless ur similarities are alot in common..too bad, we hv too mani differences..meib we shud reconsider, meib we might be beta off as jus frens..meib we are beta off as best frens..meib we shudnt be a famili no mur..

dere is no pt if onli 1 person is supportin everythin..de load is heavy, i nid a break..i wana take de back seat..let mi be de spare tire..im sick, im tired, i had enuf, i lack of rest, i lack of excuses, i lack of reasons to kip goin..to maintain mi strong self..

everythin has changed..everythin has no meanin..everythin is jus doin for de sake of doin..everythin is redundant..

wat does sayin sori means?? wat does sayin thank u means?? does words even hv meanin in dis world??

cum on, life is SHORT..do wat u lik, lik sum ppl, dey njoy doin things dat dey lik, n hurtin others..lik mi..wahaha..scram den, do wat u lik, n stop readin ordy..unles u wan to die wif mi?? unles u wan to cri wif mi?? unles u wan to gt away wif mi??

y are u readin?? i aint impt, im typin nonsense, im jus rubbish n trash..i gt no status, nothin to mi name..im jus another dumb stupid person livin in dis world wif HOPES n WISHES..bt nothin seem to go de right way all dis while, since mar 19..its ordy bin 7 months, n i cant gt hold of things i wan..its juz so so so so so difficult..

im ventin mi frustration, disapointment, stupidness, anger, loneliness, annoyance, disatisfaction, failure, vexation, letdown, obstruction, irritation..stop bein so kapo n gt a grip, gt on wif ur life..stop readin de lah..bie..haha..

2009-10-18T22:37:00.003+08:00

y do everybodi tink wat dey see?? hw do u noe if a couple is as hapi as dey seem?? or dat dey are blissful or nt?? goodness..i reali duno wat to say..haha..

i wana take de back seat..i wana hv a rest..as n whn im needed, den i'll cum..if nt i wil jus stay behind..I HOPE EVERYBODI, YOU, HIM, HER, SHE, HE is HAPPY!!

whr cn i rant mi anger off?? whr cn i let mi true feelings out?? gtta carry dem wif mi till i die lo..hehe..

im off to slp..long dae..long posts..photos at facebook..nites..

2009-10-18T22:00:00.003+08:00

SUNDAY..

wif aunti

finished!!
close up view

seafood chowder + brocolli soup

seafood platter for 2

chilli + vinegar, mayo/tartar, garlic

4 sets of 'seafood platter for 2'

earli mornin went for salomon trail run at tampines mountain bikin trail..lik last yr, went wif ai kim, ming fei, wei ni..dis yr gt taufu, keng hao, james, ms gan..=)

we all wore de blue campus road run singlet..hehe..all of us waited for de lucky draw..bt hai, din WIN anithin..1st tym din win..=(

headed to down town east to shower..den went back to white sands to lunch at manhattan fish market..totali for 8 person = $173.55..gt mud pie, soup, drink, meal..all 8 of us eat till full full..

den ms gan left..n de 7 of us headed to sims avenue to see adventure stuff..gt a shirt n pants..for camp/trekkin/etc..cool shit..finali after so long, i cn find 1 i like..n gt discount..30% summur..loves..

tmr public holiday..gona rest at hm..cos am tired..n i cant reali walk..i nearli sprain/twisted mi left ankle (3 tyms) n right ankle (1 tym)..n den duno y, suddenli, mi right hip - knee dat portion..i felt pain..soon, i cud nt climb up or down steps..totali hurts..bt walkin is ok..

2009-10-18T20:09:00.003+08:00

SATURDAY

volcano ramen

ton roro ramen
tom yam ramen

beef don

white fish

baby octopus

scallop sushi

boston clam chowder

yami yogurt = canberry n peach

went bugis for lunch..wanted to eat aji tei..cos mam gif voucher say mus go wif mi bro..bt den, aji tei close down..wth!! de voucher issue in feb 09, expire in jan 10..bt we go oct 09, CLOSED!! haha..so no choice, we eat ajisen..bt ok lah, full oso..n yummy..totali bill after discount = $24.97..lidat abt $6 per pax, cos 4 of us..CHEAP..=)

den waited for de rest to cum, 1 ate at de soup spoon..its nice too..n we had yami yogurt..den we went for walk walk..walk to city hall..haha..den bus to novena..den hm to slp..cos tmr gt race..

lots of laughter n fun..i like..=)

2009-10-16T08:50:00.003+08:00

sec sch mit up yesterdae nite at orchard shoppin centre..dey wana eat sakura..dun reali lik leh..

we are gettin married..wahaha

dey are oso gettin married..haha look at HOW big deir mouth IS!!

mi apetiser

shiti's apetiser

desert = durian puffs

take photo lah

ok, grp pic

din reali take much food pictures..cos was constantli eating!! haha..had fun wif dem..laugh lik mad..bt shant say anithin out here..dats our secret (rite shiti, dogi, dadi)..hahahaha..

2009-10-16T08:45:00.002+08:00

ranted dat i was hungri yesterdae..cos no food to eat..canteen nt even open..n den..

DAH DAH..i gt mi ai xing wu chan..HAHAHAHAHA..

dis is de most expensive n niceset lunch ive eaten all dis while..=)

THANK YOU, mi santa claus

2009-10-16T08:37:00.002+08:00

wed diner at chinatown..saw ahma, ahgong, uncle eddie, aunti tom..haha..cool shit or wat..

pineapple rice

tom yang soup
look hw spicy n sour it is

xiao long bao

i lik de tom yang soup..its a mus hv whn i go chinatown eat..n de xiao long bao too..its cheap n gud..dun hv to pay high class price..at 1 go, i cn eat 10..haha..yummy..=)

2009-10-15T11:16:00.002+08:00

..wat am i suppose to do..

..ive call, bt nobodi wants to pick up de phone..

..i nid hlp, bt i cant gt hlp..

..sometyms, it seems so near, bt at tyms, it seems so far..

..i canot control, neither cn i grasp it wif in mi reach..

i had no food tdy, no lunch..wanted sumbodi to gt n send mi..alas, mi wish was short live..de call was nt picked up n so i juz forgt it..meib its tym to depend on miself agn..after all, im independent (to certain extent)..no food den no food..1 dae dun eat oso nvm..lucki i kept mi egg tarts for ltr, if i ate it for breakfast, gud luck to mi..seriousli hate everythin rite nw..hw i wish i was back in sch whr i cn find food fm 7am - 7pm..hai..

2009-10-15T08:40:00.002+08:00

Hw mani husbands do u have?? im proud to say dat ive alot..haha..

(1) 4th husband is mi bodi. No mater hw much tym n effort we lavish in makin it look gud, it'll leave mi whn i die. (cn i be pretty whn i die)..

(2) 3rd husband is mi possessions, status n wealth. Whn i die, dey all go to others. (HAI)..

(3) 2nd husband is mi famili n frens. No mater hw close dey had bin dere for mi whn im alive, de furthest dey cn stay by mi is up to de grave. (i wan to be burned n ashes thrown in de sea, wana swim away freeli lik a dolphin)..

(1) 1st husband mi soul, often neglected in mi pursuit of material, wealth n sensual pleasure. (haha)..

It is actuali mi 1st husband dat wil folow mi wherever i go. Perhaps it's a gud idea to cultivate n strengthen it nw rather den to wait until im on mi deathbed to lament..wahahaha..inspirin..so shud i even gt married?? lidat i wil hv 5 'FIVE' husbands..wahahaha..

2009-10-14T09:34:00.003+08:00

oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah..

had lotsa fun n laughter yesterdae..reali seriousli truefuli..wish we cud mit up every week..bt all of us hv gt diff commitments..bt once a month?? haha..

took lotsa pictures..i miss dem so..

back to reality..stil searchin for campsite, together wif sir..lucky chalk hlpin mi cos he noe sum stuff abt it..pls hlp mi pray, dat chalk cn gt de campsite..pretty pretty pls..

cant tink of ani realistic reasonable reasons..y de sch dun wan support deir own cca?? y de outsource moe campsites charges so much?? if dats de case..hw are we goin to hlp moe to promote balanced education wif cca/sports..

cant dey hlp us..here we are tryin to do camps, impart knowledge n skills to de sec sch kids..bt we are stuck, cant move niether here nor dere..we nid de utmost support fm sec sch/moe/etc in order to gt things movin..cum on man..

everybodi gtta play a part..dun hv camp/courses lor..den hack abt de cca lor..=(

our HQ nids sum upgradin or change of buildin..i guess ours is de worst..since we are a voluntary org..everythin mus pay our own..meals, transport, our tym, etc..hais..

2009-10-13T14:37:00.002+08:00

sch tym table is finali out..shud i feel hapi or sad??

gt alot of breaks inbetween..shud i be thankful?? make use of break tym to work out or swim or tan or slp??

bt den, i rather sch end earli..so i cn go hm slp, or work part tym..aniway, i hate afternoon lesson..cos always make ppl slp de..hai..

tmr til fri is de markin day..duno if sch canteen gt open nt..

mon is PH..hope i dun nid cum to sch too..

sch is gettin borin..cos nothin to do as i ordy finish all mi stuf..

de fish cracker im eatin sucks..nt veri nice..

im missin JB's seafood..=( i wan to go dere eat agn..bt 1 alone eat mani mani..haha..

i wan go taiwan shoppin..buy nonsense..i wana find de milk tea milk bottle..

i wan go australia..go perth n play wif de animals..go sydney, brisbane..

i wan go europe..lookin at FM sponsorship..if nt den UA sponsorship..haha..

2009-10-12T16:56:00.002+08:00

..ALRITE ppl..dis is de newest C2C relay poster..PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE hlp mi to promote it..thank you..

..quick form teams of 10 ppl..mix of guys n gals..see u at de starting line..

2009-10-12T13:17:00.002+08:00

SUNDAY

swedish meatballs!! =)

teriyaki chicken chop
seafood rings wif chips

went ikea @ queensway for lunch..so hapi, cn eat meatballs..whn was de last tym man?? haha..shared all de food, bt stil felt full..meib nw mi apetite smaller?? wahaha..i guess de seafood fm sat is stil dere lah..

headed to queensway to gt mi backpack fm uncle..he esp brought in a new wan..yeahs..bt i forgt to take pic..next post den put..loves mi backpack..hope it doesnt gif mi ani mur back pain..gona put mi sling bags at hm for mi didi to use..meib cn ask mam to wash for mi to kip inside cupboard..

walk ard queensway, den head to marina to collect goody bag..woah, dis yr is orange leh..haha..bt de cloth lik thinner den last yr..bt i heard is diff material..oh watever, de waist pouch lik yucks..haha..wanted to see movie, bt gv marina dun hv 'the ugly truth' liao..sigh, i so wan to watch lor..its bin so long since its out, bt i cant gt to watch..hai..checked dat gv grand gt..so we decided to go over..

walk ard marina first..cos go see planet traveller?? asics?? i duno lah..dose adventure stuff n gears n shoes..saw lots of pets at great world..so cute..i oso wan, bt i lazy to take care..i onli wan play wif dem..haha..whu wan hlp mi look after?? FINALI FINALI FINALI caught 'THE UGLY TRUTH' liao..YES, so damn darn HAPPY!! lucki de movie waited for mi to see..=)

sumtyms, whn ure hapi, ppl treat u bad..whn u are sad, ppl treat u gd..y is dat so..sumtyms, feelings and emotions cant be controled..its hard to feel SUCKY bt tryin to pretend u are nt..its hard, its tough, its takin a toll..sigh..wat shud u do whn encountered wif all dis? yes or no?? to go ahead, move forward, take a step back, be laid off??

2009-10-12T09:22:00.003+08:00

SATURDAY

went and back fm JB..sat was a fun fun day..full of shit, full of crap, full of food, food or drink..=)

another chop on mi passport

check out de huge drink (L = 4 RM)..comes in S, M, L
yummy yummy

hai kee seafood = cheap n gud = 135 RM

rice (3) = 3 RM

black pepper crab (2) = 52 RM

mix vegetables = 8 RM

tua dao wif chilli = 10 RM

hot plate deer meat = 20 RM

pork = 8 RM

hot plate toufu = 8 RM

baby kai lan = 6 RM

ostrich meat = 20 RM

satisfied n full

all de prices i roughly put, oso nt sure correct nt, bt its abt dere..cos we confirm spent 135 RM onli..=) however, fm city square mus take taxi (cost between 6 - 8 RM) go by meter of cos lesser..

mornin was rainin lik mad!! lucki whn we go in, de rain is gone..bt we were stuck in de stupid jam!! cn fall aslp lor..haha..once accross de check point, we had to navigate n find our way..to search for mi curry fish head..=)

initially, i was afraid dat dey wudnt wana try..cos some cud nt take chilli/spicyness..hwever, i feel dat it aint spicy at all..so i decided to gamble n brin dem eat..we din order rice cos wana eat other things..luckily, thigns turn out gud as most of dem lik de curry fish head..yeahs..next tym we cn go eat agn..hehe..

walked back to city square n book movie cos some of dem nv go msia cinema before..haha..nothin much to see, so see de jack neo 'whr gt ghost'..haha..buy tickets liao we go search for de portugese egg tarts..agn, i duno dey want nt, cos duno if dey eat..bt its superb..so bought 2 n let dem try, end up dey oso like..=) yeah, i so hapi i intro dem nice n gud food to eat..so we ordered..taufu = 15, mingfei = 8, hero = 8, korkor = 10, char = 25..wahahaha..ask bong order, he dun wan, say sure gt..end up!! haha!! DUN HV!! so i had to sell him 5 of mi egg tarts..sob sob..

see movie, shoppin, bought stuff, took neo prints, slack, eat ice cream, eat mac, eat auntie anne, eat oyster mee sua, eat waffle, eat egg tart, buy tib-bits, etc..den head to hai kee seafood to mummum diner..dat was de best highlight of de day..haha..

went hm tired n full..finali cn go jb..finali cn buy mi portugese egg tarts..finali cn eat seafood..finali cn gt away fm spore..yeah yeah yeah..

2009-10-09T14:24:00.002+08:00

..STUPID FRUITS, DUMB FRUITS, IRRITATIN FRUITS, PATHETIC FURITS, IDIOTIC FRUITS, HARMFUL FRUITS..

apple: we went recce yesterday. i saw ur checkpoint. ur 1 is the swimming 1 at the quarry there? i went over to admin side le. helping wif the registration.

strawberry: hw cum? bt i nid u be kayak sfaety leh? u mean i dun nid safety kayak meh? whu pull u over de?

apple: nono. cos tht day i ask durian if i can go along wif the recce anot. then durian ask me if i'm in the comm. then i say no, but i helping u out wif ur kayak cp. then watermelon say no, i'm in the admin side. ask me to chk wif mango. then after tht chicku told durian tht time becos i gt fyp so dun want to put me in synergy. then durian ask me if i still doing fyp anot. then i say no, so durian put me in admin side cos admin side still gt alot of things nt done.

strawberry: den mi kayak hw? APPLE!!! din u tell dem dat i ordy ask u to be mi kayak safety?? cos i nid 4 ppl..bt i onli gt u n 1 guy..i dun even hv ppl to do kayak.

apple: okok, if lidat then i ask durian again if i can do the things at the back but on the day i pass to some1 else then i go over to help u wif ur kayak. cos registration gt 2 person do. 1 is me n the other i still dunno who helping me.

strawberry: im veri angri nw. u stil rmbr nt.de other tym. hw badli u wan to be in de committee?? until u even cry...den we say is nt we choose..is de head choose..den i told u i cn use ur hlp n expertise..to be mi safety kayaker..u said ok leh. den nw, cos dey ask u go over, u jus ditch mi n go over. nt fair u noe.

apple: ya.. no..i nt ditch u

strawberry: yes, dey are de durian, chicku, watermelon, mango..bt i ordy take u..so for wat dey wan take u. n dey nt enuf tym, nobody hlp dem..is whuse fault?? deir fault leh. in de 1st place, dey dun wan take u in to hlp.

apple: okok.. i tell durian i helping u

strawberry: so y n veri rush, nobodi do, den call u do?? u urself say,...to u, fair nt??? y everytym last min whn nid hlp den call u?? hw dey treat ppl?? totali sucks..stupid fruits..hai..

apple: i reali nt ditch u. okok, i let durian noe i help u on tht day. lata i go find him

strawberry: bt dey wil stil ask u to do de stupid admin work. den for wat. u do registrtaion sure busy. nvm lah. im gona fan nian wif de stupid fruits.

apple: actualli durian gt explain to me

strawberry: mei you wun, mei you jiang dao li, den lidat..

apple: cos july the mitting alr started. but since april my performance for studies alr nt gd n durian dun want me to do badly

strawberry: bt u shud say u hlpin mi wat. i jus dun get it leh..reali.. ppl treat u bad, u stil wan to hlp dem eve nif do SK or last min..ppl whu treat u gud, always kena de shit. i tink ur brain gt prob..nida go change brain.

apple: i nvr treat u lidat. u nid 4 ppl i also can help u find 4 ppl, juz tht they are nt fr our sch 1. but they are very nice ppl i noe fr the sea exp. i can help u find more ppl also if u nid. i let durian noe lata tht i helping u out le. cos they inside also alot of ppl changing post also so nt sure who is doing what also

strawberry: canot..mus be fm nyp. i ordy gt u and 1 adc junior.

apple: but tht time durian gt say if ppl want to help, free of charge y nt. so maybe can

strawberry: nvm lah.. den u hlp de registration.

apple: no, is nt onli the reg i nid to help

strawberry: u jus go do watever dey call u ba.

apple: nid to rush other things also. so if tht day i go over to ur kayak station still ok 1

strawberry: bu yong jin le lah. i bet u on dat day sure gt admin things to do.

apple: dun wan. i reali dun mean to mk u angry again. i help u find ppl 1st. at the same time i go ask durian if i can go over to ur station on tht day. u nid 2 stars 1 isit? or 1 star enuff? if 1 star actualli gt alot. if 2 star u gt khairul? he's my kayaking buddy for day 1 sea exp. u can use him also. i reali will ask durian.. gg to sch soon

strawberry: u hlp mi find 3 ppl cn le..i gt 1 guy ordy..dun nid 2 star..at least 1 star n first aid skills.

apple: okok, can, dun angry wif me 1st. i go sch nw le. lata let u noe again.

strawberry: i nv angri..i jus veri pek chek. y dey do things always lidat. y u dun speak up for urself..

strawberry is reali, seriousli, truefuli DUMBFOUNDED..hw cn strawberry nt be angri..bt den, angri oso for wat?? de leaves on de strawberry will drop..durin de tym whn apple felt down cos she wasnt in..isint it strawberry who comforted apple?? isint it strawberry whu ask apple to join at the station..den nw dis?? it definiteli came as a shock, dere is even no reaction tym.

apple is reali, seriousli, truefuli POWERFUL..apple cn jus change course as and whn it likes..without thinkin or caring abt de tot of others?? even whn other fruits treat her bad..lik watermelon, chicku, banana, pear, orange..apple stil wana hlp dem..seriousli, wat is apple thinkin?? hai..

does being good helps?? will being good to others means others will be good to u?? HAI HAI HAI..ultimate saddness n dissapointment..no mood, moodless, moody..

2009-10-09T09:12:00.003+08:00

more photos fm mi shitti's camera..her lappy spoil, so duno WHN den she cn upload..so told her to save thumb drive n i will upload..yesterday ordy help to upload into her account..even mus upload her hari raya pics too..haha..

officers: queensway female, chung cheng male

de CHENs + extra
ok, de CHENs proper

WHOOTS..queensway officer, 2 missing

zone 5 rox

queensway officer + mdm ly + sir yl

nice nice nice pictures..cant wait for de rest to upload..gen gen..quicky..hahaha..

mr photographer, quick burn into cd n pass us..thanks..

2009-10-07T09:37:00.002+08:00

had c2c mittin yesterdae..n i was IMPRESED n SHOCK n PLEASED..1st tym, in mi entire adc life, in all de mittings wif BOSS..we ended on tym, though we started late..

WELL DONE BOSS!! =)

we started at 730pm, cos he had an earlier mittin wif de volleyball coach..den he mit us..we dun even nid to use de projector lor..haha..jus all see thru lappy..chop chop, we are done..YEAHS..i tink de progress of de work done is nt bad..jus dat i hope gt ppl participate..PLEASE..

21st burfdae cake..BEFORE

21st burfdae cake..AFTER
burfdae boy actin cute

bon voyage, stay safe

bbq chicken chop, double fries

grilled dory fish, onion rings, pasta salad, black pepper + mushroom sauces..=)

after mittin, rush to amk aston..celebrate tilly's burfdae..advanced burfdae..cos he leavin for taiwan wif de army le..wun be back til 20++..so long nv see him, it feels gd..gt to sit in de "RUSH" agn..wahaha..

BON VOYAGE, stay safe, hv fun..rmbr mi pressy..hehehe..u nv change much..hope u faster ord n hang out wif us..hw i wish u lik wei teck, so slack..every fri cn BOOK OUT!! haha..see u SOON!!

2009-10-07T09:31:00.002+08:00

updates on de weddin mornin..took sum pics fm mdm's fren facebook..bt nt alot..waitin for de rest to upload..tmr's mittin takin pic fm mi shitti, so i cn upload for her, faster oso..wahaha..

bride wif 10 jie-mei..6 fm st john lor..=)

at punggol
hmm, mus walk thru dis grass to cross over de other side..sianz..

waitin for photographer to gif instructions, bride n groom gtta walk all de way back inside..

take 1

take 2

*pls pray, de camera man will burn all de photos n videos into cd for ALL OF US*

2009-10-06T08:54:00.002+08:00

yes!! week 7 of IPP le..4 mur weeks to go..den cn go back sch..so mani activities all clashin wif one another!! hw hw hw??

cn i go for everythin?? hw do i make tym for everythin??

suddenli, wat i said yesterdae to sumbodi, its cumin back to haunt mi..n im sure, i hv to mkae sacrifices..

I CANT HV EVERYTHIN, I HV TO CHOOSE N CONSIDER CAREFULI WHICH IS MUR IMPT RIGHT NOW TO MI..

6th oct: c2c meeting, charity fair meeting
8th oct: zone meeting
9th oct: diner
10th oct: go jb
11th oct: queensway shoppin center, marina square
14th oct: private sch
16th oct: diner
17th oct: sushi tei, sims ave
18th oct: salomon run, fish n co
19th oct: HOPE GT PH
21st oct: charity fair meeting
23rd oct: diner
24th oct: BCLS
28th oct: diner
30th oct: diner, half island hike
31st oct: half island hike
1st nov: zone presentation, half island hike

GOODNESS, lucki dun hv much clashes..sumtyms, i do wonder..once i grad, wat cert am i getting?? whr shud mi focus be?? wat shud i pay attention to??
* sport n wellness mgt
* st john
* adc

2009-10-05T08:27:00.004+08:00

alrite, as promise..photos..de rest in facebook n sum other ppl's camera..haha..

mask 1

mask 2

done before de weddin on fri nite..haha..look lik freak sia..bt wat to do..vain mah hor..=)

wif genevieve n wan ling in de car..mornin as jie-mei

mi hair done for de nite

chinese fish VS halal fish..wahahaha

de menu for de weddin diner

cam-whore-ing in de toilet

queensway senior officers..mi n QSS male officers (jing xing nv cum)

mi n QSS female officers (din take wif gen, hai)

OMG, dese gals has gt so mani of deir faces in mi camera!!

queensway table + extra fm CCHY branch (shrek)

table 31 rox

table 31 agn wif de bride n groom

bride n groom + all de YOUNG officers..=)

ZONE 5..hi 5

Queensway officers + extras

queensway officers wif bride n groom

weddin diner gift..=)

whoots..bein jie-mei for de 1st tym..dats totali COOL..had fun foolin n makin fun of de groom..its gud dat both de bride n groom i noe..as we are all fm ST JOHN - ZONE 5..YEAHS..

sir, whu ask u always de-kan us..wahaha..bt overall, its lik 1st hand 'view'..cos usuali i gt to see hw de groom get de bride, usuali fm de video done to let guest see durin de diner..

super duper love de experience..nt onli u cn play n disturb de groom, u stil ge PAID doin so..haha..collect free money..tks to mdm for askin mi to be her jie-mei..YEAHs..=)

diner was at safra mt faber..SO SO near mi hse..hehe..went to do mi hair, which im so satisfied..next tym i shal go to dat salon..jus downstairs onli, bt i nv try before..haha..

hlp out at reception together wif mdm huishan..we sure had loads of fun..n i gt to talk n see SIR's AMRY frens/buddies/officers/etc..COOL SHIT!! hehe..

went diner abt to end, 4 of us de jie-mei went out to distribute de mooncakes to de guest..fm raffles hotel i tink..shud be yummy..

after diner, went to play lantern, or i shud say, CANDLES..haha..

before

after

2009-10-02T21:09:00.002+08:00

at vivo playin..sigh, i tink i gt deprived childhood?? haha..am goin to slp nw..chao..